troubled mind...

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2008-11-30T19:45:00.002+08:00

Sunday, 30th November 2008

wad is more impt? her happiness, or mine? its a difficult qn hor? sometimes, ppl like to sae that to be happy make ur loved ones happy.but wad if...u're not in the process of making ur loved ones happy? sometimes...i do realli feel miserable.emo.i dunno wad is right.

she's always giving way to me.like when i sae i have off on the last wk of dec and when she says she's willing to cancel her trekking trip for me? i dunno to feel happy or wad.on one hand, i want to spend tym wif her.on the other hand, i'm thinking if it is out of pity for me or if she's just worried that i'm unhappy. n i noe she wans to go.argh.

there's lots in my mind that i dunno how to sae.u noe...in drama...love is always depicted as sthg so sweet and simple.as they sae "to love is to noe when to let go" i tink its true.another saying says that love is "to see the other one happy". both suggests letting the other party enjoy herself.let her do the things she enjoy most.even if it may not be the best of interest to u.its telling us to be generous with our love and not being selfish and narrow minded. but yet...another school thot says: "do wad u deem is right." YES! this wld make me happier in some cases! say no to this i no to that! say U MUST DO THIS! I WANT THIS! i would be happier to some extent wldnt i? i wonder if that's realli so...haiz.

it sux to tink so much hor.i want to be just like her.simple minded.not tink so much. be happy! do the things she like. but i can't.cuz it scares me how selfish i would become...arghhhhhh!

army do make ppl weird.or izit just me?

BORED TO TEARS.

2008-11-15T12:04:00.001+08:00

Saturday, 15th November 2008

WEEKENDS ARE SOOOOOO BORINGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!! someone pls go out wif me pls...i'm sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo BORED!

a dream...

2008-11-06T23:49:00.003+08:00

Thursday, 6th November 2008

YAY! tmr's an off day! freedom! but not exactly a taste of it after a long time.anyway...the past few days in camp was SUPER slack.had lots of private time to myself.do things i like.gym, run, etc. yea...it was good. sometimes i realli love time in camp. (:

dear dear's exams are coming so soon.on the 24th.and she's got no time to pei me. sad.and haven been going out wif her for so so long.no doubt i did meet her for supper and stuff...but it was realli realli short period of time and i couldnt realli enjoy myself wif her.unlike the good old times when she was so free on the weekends.now, the bulk of her weekends are mostly dedicated to studying.oh wells...but can't realli blame her for it.its the university anw.work, work and more work is part of the 4 years.oh wells. i tried to be there for her, when she's studying i'll accompany her, but after sometime i realli do get bored...cuz there's realli nth much for me to do.but realli...i wanna do sthg for her.be there for her.but how? anyone can teach me how to keep myself entertained when she's studying without being a distraction to her? =(

u noe...sometimes i daydream.in this dream there's a beautifully painted picture of me and dear dear. we're in a room.a room in my house.a very very special room.its a very quiet room that can only been located by me and dear dear. it have doors that can lead us to many many places in the world and these places are empty-there're no other people except us.

in the room there's a tv.and lots and lots of dvds stacked beside it.in front of the tv there's a bed.and on the bed are me and dear dear watching drama serials and movies tgt.and when we're tired, we'll cuddle each other and fall asleep.

in another corner of the room there's a kitchen.and in this kitchen there is a huge fridge, cupboards filled with all kinds of ingredients, ovens, plates, cutlery, etc. when we're hungry we'll wake up and cook for each other.something nice and full of flavour.full of love.and when u eat it, it'll burst with so much warmth and emotions that you'll burst out with tears of joy.yum yum.

after we've eaten.we decided to visit the beach.we pack our stuff and open the door labelled "beach". we stepped foot onto golden sand.the wind is blowing strongly onto our faces, carrying with it the sound of the roaring waves.the sun is basking its rays onto us as tho it was long awaiting our arrival.we threw all our things aside and run towards the sea and splashed water at each other.swim around.tan.

soon it's nightfall.the moon is round and bright.we're tired and hungry.we pitched a tent along the shores and sat in the tent.we brought out our instant bbq pit and set it up just outside the tent and began bbq-ing food for our dinner.we made marshmallows for each other and fed each other.we chit-chat.talk about almost everything.and when we're done, we stepped back into the room.

this room unlocks unlimited boundaries that we can go to.anywhere we want to go to we can go. FUN. and most importantly...its some realli private quality time tgt.

haiz...but still...its a dream...how can it ever happen?haha.

anyway...i hope that my dear dear can get thru her torturous exams fast and quick.spare her the torture.and so that she can quickly go for her treks and spend more time wif me.i missed her presence terribly. =(

cobby webby

2008-10-12T16:13:00.002+08:00

Sunday, 12th October 2008

ooooohhhhh... haven blogged for such a long long tym. and did i mention, taiwan's R&R was such a blast. totally loved it! the shopping and all! haha. shall go there another tym with dear dear if i have the opportunity.=))

so...finally! goodbye to gedong! and HELLOOOOO to pasir laba! =))finally got my 3SG rank.big fuck now alr huh.haha.not realli la.haha.but well...hope life wld be slack.=]next wk i wld be on block leave.whole wk until 20th except monday the 13th.oh well...dunno whether to burst out in tears or to jump with joy and exhilaration.cuz my encik said this: "for ppl going to MSU, after 2pm on monday...you all can go home.you have to report to your unit only on the 20th.don worry about your leave...it had alr been approved and CLEARED" and he continued saying: "some of you have no more leave.some only have 1, at the most 2." yea yea...thank you encik. =.=" FUCK LA. anyhow clear! i wanted to go somewhere wif dear dear in dec one lei! nxt few wks can't even go overseas wif her cuz she's having exams.busy mugging.how to? =(

speaking of dec...dear dear wld be away for nearly the whole month. 5 treks.=( she's pretty excited and happy abt going...but she'll come back complaining.ha.RIGHT HOR DEAR? so fun can. i'll miss her! =[

ahhhh...don tink abt tt yet.just enjoy dear's company b4 december. oh oh! 26th october's coming! 2 more wks! ^.^ ^.^ ^.^

taiwan

2008-08-29T17:12:00.002+08:00

29th August 2008

gonna fly today alr...for taiwan...and well...god noes why this is still a secret but anyways...my frens, family and dear shld noe where i'm gonna be for the nxt 3 wks.oh man...so emo.

this few wks didnt manage to spend tym wif dear. firstly was i had to replace shaun for guard duty 2 saturdays ago...then tt sunday i went crazy over some lame stuff and made dear dear unhappy.=( in the end didnt go out. last wkend dear went to kota tinggi for a trek.altho it was onli one day...i guess she wld be so tired by the tym she's back.so didnt go out again. just loitered ard her void deck and talk.oh wells...tinking back...realli hadnt spent tym properly wif dear for a long long tym alr.and plus i was emo all the tym and saying nasty things.oh man.but wells...so glad tt had such a good tym wif dear ytd! =))

we went comex exhibition and bought a camera for my taiwan trip! then we went kushin-bo for a sumptous dinner! oh man...damn shiok can! and we played wif ice-cream...haha...took videos of one another smashing scoops of ice-cream on each other's nose.haha.then we caught wallie at 9.30 before sending dear dear home.wallie was damn nice can. nice storyline and it was rather touching at certain parts. yesterday was the best date ever in such a long time.i couldnt bear to leave dear after reaching her place.=(

today i spent most of my day at nus...keeping dear company for her lectures and had lunch wif her at "the best canteen in nus" haha.that's wad my darling said.haha. oh man...leaving in 6 hrs.gonna miss singapore, my family and esp. dear dear so so much...=((( sobs.

dear! deng wo hui lai!

i'm sorry

2008-08-17T20:32:00.002+08:00

Sunday, 17th August 2008

haha.baby...this blog's has almost like become dedicated to you alr.most of my entries are abt you.haha.

baby...i'm sorry.for saying those hurtful words...for making u cry...for making you feel bad. baby...i'm immature, ignorant, selfish, stupid, unreasonable...u name it, i have it. sorry for hurting you yea? i want to be wif u forever, just like wad i wanted when i asked u to be my girlfriend.dunno whether if u would see this but anw yea...i realli love u lots.

i dunno why i'm acting liddat recently.probably cuz i'm not used to not having u beside me for the weekends.probably cuz throughout the almost 10 months tgt...i've been spending almost every single possible day of it wif you.perhaps i've taken for granted that your weekends are mine, such that when u told me u're going to malaysia nxt wkend b4 i'm flying for taiwan, i made such a big fuss over it.

i take back every single mean thing i said to you my love...i'm so sorry. i'll support u in all tt u do...and may our love burn as strongly as ever...<3

To dear dear...

2008-05-25T17:52:00.005+08:00

25th May 2008

Baby angel!

HAPPY 7 MONTHS!!!!

dearie...hopefully when u see this it wld be tmr...the 26th.but anyway i'm sure even if u read this today...it wld alr be passed 12am.hehe.so yea...considered 7 months when u read this yea? <3

baby dearest...it was a great 7 months wif u.it passed so quickly...probably cuz for the past 5+ months, i had only been able to see u 2 days in a wk.but well...everytym we meet, i wld always estatic upon catching a glimpse of u a distance away...usually at potong pasir mrt.u juz brighten me up, no matter how dull and boring my wk had been. probably tt's wad they call love.and i'm so glad tt i experience this cosy warm feeling wif the first girl i ever fell in love wif in JC. i noe this sounds mushy or cliche...but realli realli...this is how i feel abt u.

baby...i love doing things for you...going all out for you...to surprise u wif every possible means...cuz doing so makes me happy.esp. when i see you smiling,laughing, getting high over things i do, or shld i sae sometimes the stupid things i do.haha. ur every smile and laughter means the world to me.

honey...recent events brought to my attention how much you've always done for me, although u always sae u wan to do more things for me.but darling...7 months and you've been always there for me when i needed you. and i noe many times you've been so tired and worn, but u always try to keep tt sweetest smile on your face whenever you see me.weekends means time for you to rest, to spend wif ur family, but u always leave it vacant for me... baby...these are the things you've always done for me...sacrificing urself for me...and i really really appreciate them all. you sae u've done it willingly...but nevertheless...it really means alot to me.

baby...i love u love u love u! i can't wait to see you the next book-out.you're the best honey...and baby...i've the bar of choc tt u wanted wif me.we'll have it tgt when i'm out. happy 7 months again baby...enjoy ur week and our song... *hugs and kisses*

i love u dearie...till the end of time...<3

block leave 2

2008-05-24T20:42:00.004+08:00

24th May 2008

haha.dear was complaining i aint updating.haha.so here it is...a new post after ages. =))

so yupp.i got posted out of sispec after graduating last sat.i got armour infantry.supposedly to deal wif tanks and all tt sorts. good thing is i dun have to route march anymore, and i heard no more field camps in the open anymore.wonder how true izit.anw...heard from dear dear's dad tt armour infantry isnt ez.haiz.and tt's gonna be the way for the next 5 months.

so i went back to camp on tuesday.and i hate tt place cuz its dirty and filthy. and hot and humid. and its so much further than pasir laba.sianz.travelling is gonna be a big issue for the nxt 5 mths.

anw...good news on tuesday after we booked in: we're getting a 3 day block leave! i was so happy tt day! and i managed to surprise dear dear when i suddenly appeared before her tt nite.=)) it also meant i get to spend alot more tym wif her! =))

well first day of my block leave i didnt manage to do much. dear dear was busy at work so i had to entertain myself for the day. but yea it was quite ok. had a really huge breakfast at macs in the morning b4 going off to the gym and suntanning at tp pool.tt was how day 1 was spent.it was quite ok la. managed to really relax beside the pool.=)

day 2 and 3 dear dear took leave to accompany. =)) so day 2 we went wild wild wet!!!! havent gone there for ages and this tym it was a new compound and it was wif dear. and it really made me feel like a child again...well...at least for tt few hours.haha.had a really wonderful tym wif dear, going down slides laughing away, splashing water at each other, attempting those thrilling rides, swimming ard and at the end of the day, we had a realli realli nice talk under this slide. so nice...
after tt was a really really nice dinner wif my dear b4 sending her home.tt was day 2.

day 3 was even better! camping at east coast park!!! =)) so dear and i went there in the afternoon set up our tent there and went off to play! had a nice stroll on the beach and then we rented a bike so tt i could teach dear dear. hehe. so cute can.she kept on falling on her right side and i had to like stand on her right to make sure she doesnt fall.and haha...its super tiring but it was worth it! in the end my dear dear manage to balance on the bike and cycle for 3 seconds!!! (eh...not very long but commendable ok?) it was fun seeing her screaming and shouting "dear dun let go ok?" and me keep telling her not to look down and focus in front.haha.reminds me of the tym she taught me to rollerblade.haha.(but i didnt scream la)
after tt we went for dinner at the hawker centre...a realli long long walk...but had a realli nice chat wif dear...abt almost everything under the sun...and the scenery there's beautiful...esp when its sunset. at the hawker centre...we totally pigged out! carrot cake! satay! roti john! indian rojak! coconut juice! wahhhh...super shiok and we were like super bloated when we left the place.SHIOK!!!^.^

strolled back to the tent wif dear and we sat there talking talking and talking away till it was 10...and we were playing wif dear's itouch and kop wireless internet connection from BK behind us and we were like reading blogs and all. =)) (tt explains the 2 highly suspicious tags on my blog)then we went to bathe and went to 7 eleven to buy some drinks and listerine. had a short talk wif dear again b4 going to sleep. and had breakfast at macs wif dear b4 packing up for home.

it's realli great breaking from our usual norm of shopping centres and movies...realli feels great staying out wif dear...realli liek holiday liddat...

now i'm super sad tt i have to go back tmr...n i guess...no more block leave alr...and by the tym i POP...dear wld alr be in uni and wld be super bz alr...wonder if we wld ever get such a chance to spend tym tgt again. but anw...it was a realli wonderful block leave. one more day wif dear and my family...b4 2pid army starts again...haiz...

dear i love u....

i'm so shag...

2008-04-13T13:16:00.003+08:00

13th April 2008

dear dear's gone to australia for her holiday.tis weekend is so lonely for me.exceptionally so.most of my jc frens got enlisted earlier tis wk.no one tt i could ask out. and bro's busy today.

dear's having so much fun lor! not fair lor.kayaking, sand tobogganging, visit to a brewery, and today's she's probably at some themepark.and onli day 3 of her holiday.she will have another 4 more days of fun! so shiok rite.lolx. and ahhhh...another week has to go by b4 i can see her. i miss her so much so much.

and woah.sispec's been busy busy busy tis wk.super shag by the tym i came home ytd.had tis super intensive pt lesson on monday.4km run in vest and slack plus some super sadistic strength training by my PTI.and there were weapon techinical handling test in the afternoon. tuesday was gypsy 1.super tiring lor.wandered ard mandai jungle for the entire day.wednesday was a route march and live firing.thurs was another gypsy 2.friday was slightly better but the week alr killed me. sat was school sports day.i took part in the relay.i volunteered for the role of the ironman specialist.some super crazy stuff i had to do.but it was sthg new and refreshing for a relay.haha.so decided to have some fun.but seriously it was no fun stuff.

the relay consists of 16 runners. the first 2 rounds and the last round to be run by the iron specilist alone.the rest onli had to run 1 round. but a longer round abt 700-800m. the ironman's abt 500m-600m per round.

first round i had to wear tis gas mask and run.by abt 300m i was like dying.breathless.cannot breathe properly.then dropped to the last few runners.when i reach the starting point again i was like gonna faint and couldnt wait to take the gas mask off.i realli felt like giving up lor. but still i was in a race.so i picked up the rope tt's attached to the tire and dragged it.a 12kg wheel.wth la.tis round i was slightly better.caught up wif like 2 other participants.but still i was the last few la.sianz.my legs were wobbly when i reached the end point.=.="

AND DAMN HENG! they cancelled the last round for the ironman specialist cuz all were like dying.we had to run in full battle order la.

crazy stuuf sia.

so eneded up whole day damn shag and didnt feel like doing anything.haiz

tiring week. and another tiring one coming ahead.field camp from tuesday to thursday.and CDT duty on sat till sunday morning.1 weekend burned.fuck.

i miss dear dear so much.... =(

time flies...

2008-03-29T20:35:00.002+08:00

29 March 2008

It has been a long long time since i blogged. a month plus or so. but so much has happened. and time realli passed very very fast. it was as if i was enlisted yesterday. and now...here i'm...POP-ed and am in SISPEC BSLC now. i got my alevel results on the 7th ealier this month and i got reasonably fine grades. ABCAE. and it was 5th month with dear dear on the 26th. time flies.

NS isnt really great stuff...but it aint tt tt bad either.u lose time wif those u love and all your freedom for 2 yrs. but its realli the time of your life where u experience stuff tt u'll never get to enjoy if u were just any ordinary person on the streets.u get to handle explosives, firearms, such as grenades, the m16 and singapore's own SAR21 rifle. the weapon's wayyyy cool.

POP was probably the proudest moment of my life. I swear. i marched in a parade for the first time in my life and much more it was in front of my loved ones...those i care for...those who i tink abt everyday, those who love me. my dad, my mum my sis and dear dear came for my parade.they saw me march and i was beaming when i was standing on the parade square and caught them smiling at me. too bad...it was raining tt day and dad and mum couldnt came down to put on the jockey cap. i remember vividly how emotional it was.it was like any rehearsal.but when i was singing...the words just got stuck at my throat and tears gathered at the corner of my eyes. dunno why.haha.

12 days.12 days of block leave before i got posted to my unit. as fast as it came, it passed even more quickly. i had lots of fun with dear dear.there was disney on ice, lotsa movies tgt, a mini sentosa trip, going to work with her, buying her or making her breakfast, KAYAKING WITH HER, having DINNER together again after a long long time, buying her flowers, pampering her with small gifts, eating ice-cream tgt, going out and wandering until late late, sending her home and best still...getting to see her everyday for this 12 days.

i miss her alot alot alot during time in camp. =( and sianz...i nid book back in liao.

happy new year!

2008-02-06T23:50:00.000+08:00

6th February 2008

4 weeks into army and dear's been sick twice alr.haiz.and i can't be out there for her when she's down wif all tt flu cough fever etc. tt's why army sux. super little tym for family, dearie and my friends.i super miss skl days la!haiz.

and i managed to book out ytd nite.some special unknown privilege by the officers to ppl hu got ippt gold.haha.and i'm super lucky.booking in on sunday.then going to be confined for 2 weeks again cuz of field camp.i'm so gonna treasure this few days of freedom man.with my family and with dear.and dear's gonna go hk on the 23rd.i hope i can be out on the 22nd man.then can at least can see her and send her off to the airport.

happy new year peeps! few more minutes!!!!! =))

army army army!!!!!!!!!

2008-01-27T11:56:00.000+08:00

27th January 2008

so i booked out alr.my first ever booked out.but i'm going in today again.at 7.10pm. i'm super sianz.being emo emo boy, for no reason i cried when i was packing my bag. putting my uniform my admin t-shirt, my singlets, my shorts, socks and wadeva there is to pack.i juz teared.i swear tears came out for about half an hour.i stopped.then my sis came in n hugged me.then i cried again.wad the fuck.

i realli miss home to bits.2 days in the outside world is like so short.i miss all the attention i get from my family.their concern their love.n everyone's super nice to me when i'm back.my dad was beaming when i got into his car on friday.even my uncle who rarely smiled has got this radiant smile wide across his face when he picked me up wif my dad at pasir ris mrt station. n oh boy am i super mighty glad to see them. and there was dear. when i met her later at nite on friday.i juz hugged her and juz didnt felt like letting go.cuz i missed 2 weeks of hugging her.holding her hands.and i miss juz blabbering rubbish and lame what-nots to her.talking to her.everything. and there was my bros too. jason and weili. called them and talked to them.how i miss hanging out wif them doing stupid stuff, pouring my hearts out to them. and of course all of my wonderful frens out there whom i've talked to or met during my short 2 days book out.i miss ur to bits.

so what went thru my mind when i was crying.of course there was home, my parents my brother and sister.i miss talking to my mum,my dad and fighting wif my brother. and esp esp my sis.cuz she's the one i always talk to when i'm vexed altho she usually juz nods her head and dun give any solutions.haha. AND THERE'S DEAR!!! she fell ill when i was away. a bad bad cough.bad till she has to hold her breath to talk to me when i call her at nite.it pains me.how i could not be there for her to take care of her, to give a pat on her back when she coughs.how i could not be wif her on valentine's.how i could not be there to struggle wif her during her impt examinations when she gets into uni.and how much lesser tym i have for dearie and how much lesser tym i wld have to prepare small gifts for her.and there's all these crazy stories in army about couples breaking up.all of these got me super emo and made me cry.haha.fuck the emo kid man.

ok.enuf of emo stuff.so what went on in 2 weeks of my life? seriously, seriously ah.army life is quite ok.all the physical stuff are actually quite fun.n i love trainings except for the stupid long warm-ups which we have to perform for EVERY SINGLE PHYSICAL TRAINING IN THE DAY.=.=" what suck abt army is tt u've no freedom to do ur own stuff.trainings ALWAYS cut into ur admin time (the tym where u can do ur own stuff at nite).lights out are at 2230 hrs but trngs/lessons/RO always end at ard 10+. so means no admin tym. and I'M ALWAYS STRUGGLING TO KEEP AWAKE DURING LECTURES, cuz they're so freaking bloody boring.but all the new frens i make there,esp my bunk mates are realli fun.talk cock to them haha. and they call me spiderman in there cuz they sae i look like one when i hang on the pull-up bar.lolx.and the crap they can come up wif is like...woah.

but still they're some realli f-up sergeants and corporals but there are realli realli nice ones, esp the ones i'm under.so ya i guess i'm pretty lucky. its the first tym i've been away from home and everything for such a long tym.and i haven been thru such regimentation b4 (cuz ppl nvr in uniform grp b4 ma) so ya i wasnt used to it at first, but pretty much used to the shit i've got to do and the schedules and time limits i've to meet.

oh ya.i got some knee pain on my right knee on monday b4 SOC (standard obstacle course) and i fell out of trng for tt day. went to the MO to get it checked and got 3 days excuse. but super regretted it cuz no trng means have to do sk like wash toilet run ard and doing all those what-nots and wait at the medical centre was like woah.super long.

n there was this vaccination day where we got vaccinated against thyphiod, polio and tetanus.n its super fucked up cuz we had to stand in the middle of two medics and receive vaccination jabs for thyphoid and tetanus simultaneously, one on each arm.=.=" heng the polio one is juz drinking one.haha.

oh oh.n coughs are pretty common in tekong.they call it the tekong cough.ya so ppl enlisting in april dun nid get freaked up and go the the MO for tt.not worth it.lolx.

overall army still sux.i miss the outside world.goodbye everyone.i shld be out on friday again.i shall now go back to enjoy my last few hours of freedom.haiz.and to everyone.juz sms me anything random.anything oso can.i'll be damn happy to receive anything from anyone.haha.

didnt i juz told emo kid to get lost.why is it back again? haiz.

emo post 2

2008-01-07T23:12:00.000+08:00

7th January 2008

its emo day.again.oki so rengfu read my blog.and he told me juz now he felt the same way too.lolx.so i'm not juz the onli one.lolx.

2dae was a rather good day i guess. except tt it was super tiring cuz i had to sleep at 2am and wake up at 5.30 to make breakfast for my bro and sis b4 going back to sleep till 7.30.then sent dear to work and i was late!!!ahhh...so paisei sia.heng she still reached early or else rina might juz kill her.haha.

i went swimming after tt.n i was so tired.almost died can.lolx.no la was joking abt tt part.but i cldnt swim well then the lifeguard tell me go shallower end train.wtf.so malu sia. so it kindda confirmed now tt i nid to use my break times to learn how to swim.lolx.

dinner was wif lib mugging group.rengfu, bridget,iting,jason, triston,jingyi,chenshao and his gf,and of course dear dear. supposed to eat at chomp chomp.but there wasnt enuf space.so ended up dining at some russina restaurant but it was quite cheap la.haha.n it was whole hell lot of fun cuz rengfu triston and i was talking like so much crap all the tym.haha.lauf like crazi.haha.perhaps i cld talk more 2dae cuz of the triple shot espresson i drank wif mr yan and gabriel at vivo.lolx.

wah.dunno wad to blog alr.suddenly life like damn no meaning liddat.cuz going jail in 3 days.haha.

tmr is dinner wif class.06s19.so looking forward to seeing all of them man.=))

emo post.

2008-01-07T00:59:00.000+08:00

7th January 2008

2dae's huimin's birthday.HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U!!! thx for being such a good jiejie (wth la =.=") for the past yr.haha.yupp its realli good to talk to u online.=)) muz kip in touch yea? even if not studying in same skl le.lolx.

few more days to NS.super sad now.tis few days have been realli holding onto dear's hands real tight and feels realli reluctant to let it go.when sending her home, my heart always sinks when i reach her house.cuz it means lesser tym to see her b4 enlistment. =(

4 days ppl.this few days there wld be so many farewell dinners for me. 2nite wld be wif the toa payoh lib mugging grp. tuesday wld be wif s19, the class tt i've been thru thins and thick wif, hu saw my transition in jc.probably (i hope) to a more talkative jinghao.haha.wednesday wld be a whole day out wif mum.and probably family dinner at nite.thurs.i hope tt dear cld get her leave so tt i cld spend the whole day out wif her.at all these gatherings and all...i hope i wldnt get too emotional man.cuz i'm such an emo boy.lolx.haha.

NS is such a cruel thing.separates ppl from their loved ones.trains them like mad in there.confines them.make them have field camps in some 2pid jungle,circling ard the same small 2pid jungle for a week w/o bathing.

some might sae "c'mon! 2 weeks! its onli 2 weeks?!" yea i agree its onli 2 weeks which is realli damn short.haha.but...its realli so like losing all ur freedom for 2 weeks.wah piang.and i heard stuff like sat afternoon book out sunday nite book in.wth.

n i still dunno the 2pid breast stroke swimming thingy.so it means i've to sacrifice my break times for swimming lessons.omg can.

n there's the wearing of the oh-my-god-its-so-ugly-specs can.haiz.army.its such an emo place.

but 2 yrs.this 2 yrs i hope everything wld remain status quo, if not better.my relationship wif dear, family, friends and all.

and friends...i'll miss u all.altho its juz 2 weeks.trust me.i'll tink abt everyone of u when i sleep at nite.lolx.wad else can u expect from emo boy man...lolx.

11th jan is coming...

2008-01-02T23:47:00.000+08:00

2nd January 2008

11th jan is drawing so close and tt sux.haha.

resolution.

2008-01-01T19:37:00.000+08:00

1st January 2008

haha.2nd post of 2dae.lolx.bored at home tt's why.gary told me mr yeo updated his blog and he got his 2007 resolutions review and his new 2008 resolutions up.haha.read it and thot to myself i should have some myself.haha.mine super short one la. here goes.

1) be a good son.dun get pissed wif my dad so much. be a listening ear to my mum.show my parents more care and concern and appreciation.

2) ALWAYS keep promises and never be late for anything

3) be a good brother to my bro and sis.

4) be the best friend to anyone.

5) be a even better friend to all my friends.

6) be a even better bro to all my bros.

7) become an officer in NS. (the pay's attractive lolx)

last but not least....

8) be the best boyfriend in the world to tzewei.

happy 2008! =))

2008-01-01T18:13:00.000+08:00

1st January 2008

A BRAND NEW YEAR AND MY VERY FIRST POST OF THE YEAR! ;))

ytd was supposedly a class outing.out of which onli 4 ppl turned up.actually 5.me, jason, xf, vernon and ronald, but ronald had to leave after awhile.and i was so so late.damn paisei sia.

anw.it was damn fun!went cycling, roller blading and cable ski-ing at east coast park. fell like dunno how many times during blading haha.but i'm slightly better now.from the last tym i went wif dear.slightly better i guess haha. the best was water-skiing.so thrilling. but it was damn ex.i so wanna do water sports next tym in uni or sthg.get a CCA tt teaches u wakeboarding.how cool can it get man.lolx.

and after class outing, there was countdown wif jason,iting,bridget and dear! jason n i went bridget's hse there then played abit of mahjong.damn fun i tell u.first tym play then now abit addicted liao.who noes nxt tym i might own the whole of the integrated resort casino and become singapore god of gambler.wah. then can wear shades everywhere i go.sit in a limo everywhere i go.wear a tux.eat chocolate when i gamble and wear a jade ring on my finger.wah.shiok.=.="

anw.damn sad.our student ez-link no more concession liao.now take bus/train anywhere so ex.sianz.so means wad? muz start learning driving liao lor.haha.

skl rocks.

2007-12-30T23:34:00.000+08:00

30th December 2007

THE YEAR's COMING TO AN END!!! 2007 had been an eventful year.and a rather happy and meaningful one as well.dun read my blog and say "no lei...u seem so emo all year round!" no la.its juz tt i love blogging abt more emotional stuff haha.i cld be happy too! lolx.

anw...ytd went back to SAJC wif dear for morning exercise.haha.ended up i was the only one hu exercised.=.=" then we sat at the track there and enjoyed the peace in skl.it was realli rare tt skl was so cold and quiet.usually it was noisy and busy.it was realli cool to sit there, watch the cars pass the highway, look at the sky, feel the breeze and enjoy the sun.and i feels realli good back at the familiar track.

skl feels great and i realli miss it.of course not studies.more of the ppl.my friends,some of the funkiest teachers tt i had and so on.cool.

so after tt dear and i took a walk ard skl.we went back to our CCA boards and found them being revamped.then we went back to our classrooms.they were locked of course, but we managed to take a peek in.everything was still in place.our homerooms still had all tt class photos and notes on the boards.such a homely feeling.

then we went ard skl, and went to some of the places we ran ard during orientation.these are realli some beautiful memories i have of skl.consultation areas tt i spent much of my pre-alevels tym wif gary,clarence and jason wif miss lee or miss lye.

i oso went to the area outside the hall where u can get a direct view of the volleyball court and i was telling dear abt our first orientation.the last day of it.where we took photos at the area outside the GO as an OG and then we assembled right at the centre of the volleyball court to go off for dinner.and abt how we played one game at the volleyball court where we had to stand on number labelled chairs and tables and pass the ball to ur OG mates wif another OG's members trying to intercept ur throw.and i remembered tt the scholar zach (the AVA club one) was trying to intercept my ball wif his hands moving like an octopus.lolx.super comical.and his socks were super high.and red shorts if i'm not wrong.picture tt.hahahahahaha.

dear and i saw all these paintings being framed up along the stairways. and i found one damn meaningful one.

here was wad it said.

"As a child I was always fasinated by the vast collection of brightly coloured 20 cents junk food in snack stalls. The measly 1 dollar allowance I had each day never seemed enough to satisfy all my cravings.

Yet as I look at this child being amazed by such a simple snack, I realise many people seem to have lost their almost childlike fasination. We constabtly seek quality and are so obsessed with exquisite delicacies that we become demanding and hard-to-please, always unsatisfied and unappreciative. How have we gotten so caught up in growing up that we forget life's small platter of pleasures?"

meaningful rite? lolx. i realise it super applies to me la. how unappreciative of ppl, things ard me until i've lost it before i realli start to miss it. seriously.i miss all my classmates, schoolmates, teachers and friends.

it was a meaningful morning spent in skl i guess.reminiscing abt skl.lolx.

then went to kbox wif my cousin and sis and bro in the afternoon! had a damn wild tym there.drank a little bit of liqour then got damn high alr.sing until damn crazi.sang from abt 3 to 8.shiok! i realise i've gone to kbox like 3 times in a month! haha.lolx.addictive i guess.lolx.

anw...some random photos.haha.

my sweaty butt trademark.haha.

she's pointing to something!

chey! its juz tt a plane juz flew past.

ok.we both look weird in this pic.i dunno how to describe it.haha.and i wasnt wearing specs tt day.i juz wore it to take pic for keepsake.haha.

my mentoring board!

mentoring classroom!

meet shaun.taken from his sfc board.he looks damn big.lolx.

dear's classroom!

S19!

the door and bridge tt everyone loves leaving and crossing everyday after skl.

popular and my favourite ice mocha store in skl.lolx.

dear's locker!

the gay lockers.mine (157) and jason's (161)

staff room!

every pidgeon's favourite hideout.

haha.tt's all peeps! enjoy the last day of 2007! =))

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

2007-12-25T23:49:00.000+08:00

25th December 2007

its the last few minutes of christmas 2007.i was so looking forward to it b4 alvls.but now its gonna be over.and i have to wait till one yr later b4 i can celebrate it again.

tis yr christmas i spent the most cuz i bought presents for some of the closest ppl to me.n i realli spent alot.and i realised.i didnt leave any for myself.haha.i tink i used all my pay.but nvm! everyone's happy! hehe.all except my brother.i bought him a transformers toy which cost me 30 bucks and he was telling me "kor juz now i saw some children playing transformers.so lame lei." when he unwrapped the gift i had for him.WTF.since when 10 yr olds got so matured.i know some 10 yr olds still playing eraser last tym lor.haha.wah piang.the transformer so cool can.can transform.last tym i like tamiya cars when i was 10 yrs old lei.wah.now all like computer games nia.n my bro said he wanted gunbound aimbot.wth is tt???

anw.christmas dinner was great but the food wasnt realli good.went chijmes la viva wif dear.then went orchard to walk and i perspired like crazi cuz it was so warm.heng it wasnt realli crowded but it wasnt realli very happening.dun have the spray foam thing and all.haha.but it was a great evening.

merry christmas too all! for the last tym in 2007! =))

wonderful day.

2007-12-23T23:28:00.000+08:00

23rd December 2007

2dae had a short but definitely the most special and meaningful date wif dear. we went donate blood.haha.yea.tt's why i felt tt it was the most meaningful of it all.hehe.

and 2dae's pay day.mr yan paid me for my past few week's work.lolx quite good.he raised it to $7 an hr. and hand delivered to me at ps 2dae.then plus alot of lunch treats and all.

last tym i still had some reservations abt him.as in i thot he was quite scary cuz dunno wad he tinking sometimes.but after working wif him for abt 3 weeks then felt tt he quite nice.then although he's like the boss ard but he nvr boss ppl ard then carry stuff he oso help out.in fact quite alot of things he do himself one.like painting drilling all tt.n he quite nice to me.yea.so yea i consider myself quite lucky to work under him.

few more days to christmas! i super look forward to christmas tis yr! got so mani mroe good frens, closer friendships, no more skl work (!!!) and of course...dear's company(!!!!!!!!). an early merry christmas to all! =))

kbox-ed like crazi

2007-12-22T23:08:00.000+08:00

22nd December 2007

ytd kbox-ed wif bro, dear and bridget at suntec kbox.from abt 8pm till 3am the nxt day.omg.haha.but i got super high suddenly.haha.cld be due to the vodka.haha.but i haven felt so high for such a long tym.lolx.n i realli dun get high easily.anw.ytd was definitely the best kbox session ever.definitely the best.

n crazi bridget wanted to walk home after kbox.which is so crazi can cuz all of us r so tired.esp. dear and me cuz we went kbox straight after work.=.=" anw.we didnt walk home eventually.haha.we onli walked till esplanade then bridget took a night rider home while the rest of us cabbed home.haha.

n guess wad.i slept at abt 5, woke up abt 10.30 feeling super blur and stupid and dead and went to work.worked till 5.30 liddat summore.n guess wad?i'm still awake and haven sleep yet.=.=" i realli nid go sleep. haha. nitez ppl.=))

rollerblading!

2007-12-20T22:50:00.000+08:00

20th November 2007

2dae was a super fun day! =)) went rollerblading wif tzewei at east coast park 2dae.met her at toa payoh interchange b4 taking bus 31 there. and 2dae was a good day cuz both of us didnt have to work and we're super full of energy.

we alighted near CHIJ katong there then walked to ecp.then someone stepped on a flattened dead rat and claimed it was a ball of cotton wool.haha.

anw.blading was super fun and challenging.cuz u have to balance urself like damn well or else u'll fall.which i did like 6 times.landed on my butt.=.=" heng the guys FBT shorts quite thick so nvr kena cut or orh chei.but actually the falls werent tt pain lor except once which when i fell i like turned a 360 degrees circle b4 landing on my butt.haha.

i realli had trouble gliding (as wad dear calls it) cuz the somehow the roller blades kept on tilting at a certain angle which makes the ankle area painful.haha.anw...learnt abit abt blading 2dae and i find myself liking it alot!=))

tmr going kbox! (shld be)haha.muz find song to sing or else damn paisei.haha.nitez ppl!=))

oh oh.b4 i go show u my marathon foto.haha.taken from the singapore marathon website.shuai.but the muscle can be more defined abit.lol.

oh.and a pic of me and dear. =))

2007-12-18T22:17:00.000+08:00

18th December 2007

hey blogspot!i'm back from hong kong.hong kong is such a nice place.esp. the weather.not too cold.juz right.=)) i love the weather cuz i dun perspire much.cuz i can realli perspire alot.ALOT.but i heard we were juz nice for hk's winter season.explaining the coolness.and oso heard tt the summer is super scorching hot.heng ah.haha.and end of february is ard the spring season.not sae very cold but shld still be quite cooling.haha.

hk's mainly abt shopping lor.and scenery.and the crowd and the streets.they dun seem to sleep.streets are still brightly litted and crowded and full of life at 11+ at nite.and their night scenery is absolutely beautiful.i took a walk ard singapore river the other nite.and singapore's such a disappointement.the scenery is so dull.so dark.so lousy.omg.sad.

i luv hk.so much better.but i oso like singapore la.its definitely more comfortable in ur home country.out houses r bigger and lives are compareably less hectic.lolx.

anw...let's move on to other things.
dear got her first job.she started work 2dae.she went for her interview ytd unprepared and she got it.out of 2 pages worth of potential candidates,my dear got it! i'm so proud of her! =))

but...on the other hand.i'm also feeling a little little sad.cuz less time tt we can spend tgt.and dear said tt she might even have to work on weekends and public holidays.and tt means super little tym tgt before i go army. honestly speaking i was quite emo abt it 2dae.but after thinking thru.i tink in a way its good.cuz nxt tym i'll be in army and in due tym dear wld be in uni.and tt also means little tym tgt.so in this 2-3 weeks we have now, we could use it to learn how to squeese in tym to spend wif one another.rite? =))

i was complaining abt how tough my job was.how much sai kang i had to do to earn tt miserable 6 bucks and hr.but dear told me abt her job 2dae and i found tt hers is even more diff to earn.the amt of things she has to memorise and the long grueling hours she has to stand and walk abt without even able to even sit down and rest.and she has to face multiple surprise tests by her supervisor.tt much more work for the same pay. and not even considering the fact tt she might have to work on public holidays and weekends! =(

so from tmr onwards,i shant complain anymore.i'll do as i'm told.put in my heart and soul into my job and do it well.its 6 dollars! realli not bad liao.dear has to go thru much more than me.i juz have to do some brainless meanial work rite? haha.wad's all tt gym and exercise i've done for the past 2 yrs for?serve it for the better good!help create a comfortable learning environment for people going for tuition so as to facilitate their learning.=)yupp.no more complaining liao.

oh.went out wif bro ytd too.went queensway bought some clothing.haha.quite nice.damn long nvr meet him liao.yea so finally did.but damn paisei 2dae had to pangsei him.paisei ah bro.

oh.and i watched super alot of movies recently.and golden compass and alvin and the chipmunks is damn nice.go watch it ppl! =))

emo post.

2007-12-10T00:42:00.000+08:00

10th December 2007

its alr 10th december 2dae.i counted.onli 32 days left to NS.means onli 32 days left wif dear before i get locked up.it sux.clarence is right.i'm so gonna miss tzewei when i'm in the camp.and i was tinking abt it 2dae...how m i gonna survive thru 2 weeks w/o seeing her. frens and family are impt too.but its totally i different kind of feeling when i'm wif tzewei.i tink i might even cry on the first night in camp.

i'm flying to HK tmr morning.6am.i will be away for 5 days.which means 27 days left wif dear. and she's going to thailand for 3 days in jan.24 days left tt i can spend wif her.and minus days where we can't meet, i practically have less than 3 weeks wif dear.tt's super short can?

i'm playing jon mclaughin's song "so close" as i'm typing away here.i'm feeling emo.haha.

You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

i love tis verse.

anw...i was looking back in my SAJC life. how tzewei has been part of it since day 1 but i nvr knew.and it was sweet knowing tt.

orientation OG17 day 1

tzewei is the 5th person counting from me on ur right in the foto.

ivana.

last day of orientation 1.

PAE 06s15.same class as tzewei.=))

PAE 06s15.

we were going for kayaking orientation wif aquila ventures.

OG23 bbq.=)) same OG as tzewei again.

we were separated by class.=( but we still hung out. tis was mini class dinner at glass hse fish and co.

lolx.who would know.the next foto we took tgt after tt was when we're realli tgt.haha.

haha.yupp! tt's me and the most beautiful woman in my life.=))

i love u dear.thx for being part of my life.i'm not handsome, smart, and i'm so full of flaws.but nevertheless...u accepted me.

life.

2007-12-08T22:35:00.000+08:00

8th December 2007

i simply hate being made use of by ppl.but hu to blame except for being so gullible (not sure if it is the right word). anw...recently found a job. working for my math tutor helping him to type and check his math worksheets. and the fact tt i've to do integration and vectors (to double check answers)sux cuz it feels like i'm siting for the alevls all over again and its doubly sucky when u've forgotten how to do them and u've to read up on them. wtf. and 2dae worse still.i've got to move things for him.reached the centre at bugis at 8.40 and immediately was sent to tampines to move things. at least 3 trips from the car to the centre and pushing and carrying and moving all those heavy loads of papers and books.omg tt sux.and i've go to return to bugis and unload all tt stuff.another 2-3 trips up to the 5th floor. then rushed back to tampines again to move and carry stuff again.and back to bugis again to unload.realli sux.SUX! all tt sai kang for $6 an hr.(lolx.dun realli noe whether i shld complain anot).my dad was telling me my tutor realli saving alot liddat on movers. cuz u nid to pay movers abt $500 to do all tt. but now he's paying me $42 and the other guy abt the same amt (but i tink more cuz he's an undergrad).haiz.wadeva.=.="

then had to meet a fren to pass him the zoukout tix. initially he offered me $30 for it.then after tt when the date was closer alr he told mi he didnt want it anymore.so wad to do?since no one is going to buy it then muz well give it to him.so he said meet at dhoby ghaut 2dae.n so i did after work.n i waited.

called him after tt and he said he's still at home.(he said he was at home when i was at outram). n he told mi to go serangoon mrt to meet him and he said he's leaving home.n so i did.waited waited and waited again.he called me.said he's at home again.fuck.and he told me to meet him at the prata hse near his place.and so i did again.went there.gave it to him. and found out tt he's going to sell them.

i'm super pissed for him playing me ard.and for the fact tt he's using the tix i gave him to sell.he said he wld give me half the amt he earned.fair.he said he's selling for $20 odd dollars.can i even trust him?ahhhhh.i dunno la.tis world's juz so complicated.

sometimes i really hope tt life isnt as complicated as i tink.mebe i'm juz tinking too much into things and tinking other ppl are trying to be complicated when they arent.haha.i dunno.lolx.

went vernon's church ytd.and made many new frens.veri happy abt tt.they asked for the audience to accept christ into their lives and told us to step forward if we wanted to do so.many times i realli wonder if i should baptise.but many times i feel...tt i'm not ready for it.i dunno why.but its juz so.sometimes i realli have the impulse to baptise but i thot tt shldnt be the way and tt i shld find the faith in christ b4 doing so and shld have the kind of commitment to attend church service.but i realli doubt tt i'm able to do tt.so yea...i'm still tinking...haiz.

anw...
life wif dear is always so happy.so without worries.makes me feel the world is so perfect and all. n i tink tis song absolutely describes the sweetness of it all.sometimes juz wandering ard aimlessly wif her cld be such an enjoyable thing.

Jon Mclaughlin-So Close
http://mharsean.imeem.com/music/Av5T5qxc/jon_mclaughlin_so_close/

You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far

i love u baby. <3

happy 1 mth...

2007-11-28T22:29:00.000+08:00

28th November 2007

1 mth 2 days ago wif dear.and tinking back.tis one mth it was solely spent on mugging for exams and realli didnt realli have much tym to go out wif dear.but reflecting back, it was a memorable 1 mth.although it was during the critical exams,we were both there to show encouragement for each other.and although i was always so tensed and stressed for the exams, dear's presence made everything less frigthening than it seemed.her small but significant gifts and notes, meant everything to me.

I love u dear.thx for always being so understanding and caring and loving. =)

"in every bunch there's one tt stands out from the rest." tt's u dear...

over over over!

2007-11-22T21:47:00.001+08:00

22nd November 2007

yay! exams are finally over! its a closure to another chapter of my life: JC life.realli a closure.but well...there's still grad dinner.haha.but well...i wonder when i'll ever go back to SAJC again other than going back tt juz to take results. its juz 50 DAYS man 50 DAYS to NS. there's so much tt i wanna accomplish but i have so little time left. like...i wanna get a job...to earn some money. haha...anw...i'm diverging from wad i actually wanted to sae.

wad i actually wanted to sae is...it realli sux to see such a division in my class. like girls one group.guys one group.why can't there be a better integration of the two groups? like 2dae...the guys came first.and we played ball for awhile and b4 the girls came.then its super strange one la.the guys dun tok to the girls then the girls oso on their own de. and it was supposed to be a class outing? its juz feels totally so weird la. i talked to a close fren abt it.and he sae dun care la can't do anything abt it.and i feel: perhaps we cld do sthg abt it but we arent.haiz.

its juz a random thot.no offense to anyone.

anw...A'levels are over! and it tym to play, enjoy and spend time wif ur frens and love ones. =)

last day last day!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-11-21T22:34:00.000+08:00

21st November 2007

!!! its the eve of the day to freedom! right now its 10.39 according to my computer's clock. oh my.10 hrs 36 mins to freedom! !!! ahhhh! i realli dunno how i wld feel tmr after the ppr. its realli like no-more-books-for-two-years? tinking back...i wasnt realli estatic abt it during o'levels.dunno whether tmr things will be the same too.haha.anw...right now,i'm feeling...weird.dunno whether to be happy abt it anw.exams gonna be over but i'm kindda worried for tmr's ppr.cuz MCQ is realli damn impt. ahhhhh!

anw...spent the past two days wif dear at bugis starbucks mugging and i gotta sae it was super productive. and the two days wif her seemed to brought us closer too. love u dear. thanks for keeping me company. =)

oh.n i counted.50 more days to NS.wtf.

horoscope

2007-11-12T18:28:00.000+08:00

12th November 2007

VIRGO - The Perfectionist
Dominant in relationships. Conservative. Always wants the last word. Argumentative. Worries. Very smart. Dislikes noise and chaos. Eager. Hardworking. Loyal. Beautiful. Easy to talk to. Hard to please. Harsh. Practical and very fussy. Often shy. Pessimistic.

SCORPIO - The Intense One
Very energetic. Intelligent. Can be jealous and/or possessive. Hardworking. Great kisser. Can become obsessive or secretive. Holds grudges. Attractive. Determined. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Can be self-centered at times. Passionate and Emotional.

LIBRA - The Harmonizer
Nice to everyone they meet. Can't make up their mind. Have own unique appeal. Creative, energetic, and very social. Hates to be alone. Peaceful, generous. Very loving and beautiful. Flirtatious. Give in too easily. Procrastinators. Very gullible.

ARIES - TheDaredevil
Energetic. Adventurous and spontaneous. Confident and enthusiastic. Fun. Loves a challenge. EXTREMELY impatient. Sometimes selfish. Short fuse. (easily angered.) Lively, passionate, and sharp wit. Outgoing. Lose interest quickly - easily bored. Egotistical. Courageous and assertive. Tends to be physical and athletic.

AQUARIUS - The Sweetheart
Optimistic and honest. Sweet personality. Very independent. Inventive and intelligent. Friendly and loyal. Can seem unemotional. Can be a bit rebellious. Very stubborn, but original and unique. Attractive on the inside and out. Eccentric personality.

GEMINI - The Chatterbox
Smart and witty. Outgoing, very chatty. Lively, energetic. Adaptable but needs to express themselves. Argumentative and outspoken. Likes change. Versatile. Busy, sometimes nervous and tense. Gossips. May seem superficial or inconsistent, But is only changeable. Beautiful physically and mentally.

LEO - The Boss
Very organized. Need order in their lives - like being in control. Like boundaries. Tend to take over everything. Bossy. Like to help others. Social and outgoing. Extroverted. Generous, warm-hearted. Sensitive. Creative energy. Full of themselves. Loving. D oing the right thing is important to Leos. Attractive.

CANCER - The Protector
Moody, emotional. May be shy. Very loving and caring. Pretty/handsome. Excellent partners for life. Protective. Inventive and imaginative. Cautious. Touchy-feely kind of person. Needs love from others. Easily hurt, but sympathetic.

PISCES - The Dreamer
Generous, kind, and thoughtful. Very creative and imaginative. May become secretive and vague. Sensitive. Don't like details. Dreamy and unrealistic. Sympathetic and loving. Kind. Unselfish. Good kisser. Beautiful.

CAPRICORN - The Go-Getter
Patient and wise. Practical and rigid. Ambitious. Tends to be good-looking. Humorous and funny. Can be a bit shy and reserved. Often pessimists. Capricorns tend to act before they think and can be unfriendl y at times. Hold grudges. Like competition. Get what they want.

TAURUS - The Enduring One
Charming but aggressive. Can come off as boring, but they are not. Hard workers. Warm-hearted. Strong, has endurance. Solid beings who are stable and secure in their ways. Not looking for shortcuts. Take pride in their beauty. Patient and reliable. Make great friends and give good advice. Loving and kind. Loves hard - passionate. Express themselves emotionally. Prone to ferocious temper-tantrums. Determined. Indulge themselves often. Very generous.

SAGITTARIUS - The Happy-Go-Lucky One
Good-natured optimist. Doesn't want to grow up (Peter Pan Syndrome). Indulges self. Boastful. Likes luxuries and gambling. Social and outgoing. Doesn't like responsibilities. Often fantasizes. Impatient. Fun to be around. Having lots of friends. Flirtatious. Doesn't like rules. Sometimes hypocritical. Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes. Doesn't like being doubted. Beautiful inside and out.

hmmmmm....are horoscopes reliable?lolx.but i tink to some extent sometimes they're quite true.well...juz sometimes.

yay!10 more days to absolute freedom.i absolutely dread econs ppr tis wednesday.sianz.my econs suck.and worse still...i'm not putting in enuf hard work to get it up.haiz.but like wad gary said "my treshold for econs is so limited". jon damn zai.muz consult him more 2nite. anw...tmr's chem ppr 2.i hope i'll do well. so far A'levels was OK la...not sae damn good but not sae bad oso.haha.hoping to get at least all Bs lor.tt shld suffice in getting me into a decent course.hmmmm...if i do get better e.g. All As (=.=") mebe i wld consider taking medicine. perhaps study something interesting abt the human body? mebe i wld go into psychology.sounds pretty interesting.hmmmm...dunno la.haha.results back then sae. =) all the best ppl! last than 2 wks to absolute freedom for everyone! =)

lauf.like.siao.

2007-11-07T23:07:00.000+08:00

7th November 2007

studying wasnt realli productive 2dae. cuz i was realli tired 2dae n i dunno why and i got a cold. was sniffing away when i was in the library 2dae. n worse still. i didnt bring a jacket 2dae.haiz. n dear got me some panadol drink and it got me miraculously well in no time. =)

2dae was such a wacko day at the library. bridget was talking abt some device to help those guys who're suffering from erectile dysfunction. n she took dear's book and drew tis ENORMOUS erm...erm...finger looking thing and was describing how the device cld help.lolx.n after tt she went on to tok abt dear's cousin.haha.damn farni.lauf like siao.haha.

ahhhh! 5 more pprs and juz 14 more days!bliss bliss. =)

anw...happy birthday andrea! =)

my mum.

2007-11-04T10:36:00.000+08:00

4th November 2007

wow.its november already! few more days n it'll be the end of Alevels and soon, the NS. i was talking to my mum tis morning, and i realised tt my mum is a very understanding, very caring and a very mature thinker. and i told her tis: "i feel tt u're a very special mother"

i'm serious.my mum is someone hu believes on upgrading herself constantly,mentally i mean. as in...she likes to attend all those marriage talks,family talks and she even recently attended a counselling course to get her diploma in it. she's a very positive woman. haha...i dunno why i'm writing tis here, but i juz felt...inspired to write it.haha.

she was telling me, how her marriage life is a failure and once she thot tt her life is a complete failure. she told mi she once thot tt her life was always at its trough and nvr reaches its peak. she felt very sad everytym in the past. but somehow or rather, she has transformed her thinking. now she thinks tis way: "my life is not a failure. i've onli failed in one aspect of my life. i've got many friends.which shows tt i've not failed in my character. i can cook for children. i've not failed as a mother. i can manage my garden. i've success in my hobby.however i've failed in my relationship. so i'll go learn more abt it so tt i can teach my children on how to manage their relationships. "

after my mum said all these. it realli dawned on me what a mum i have. although i've always been full of admiration for tis woman, but wad she said 2dae realli made me felt more certain abt it. my mum is a great woman. perhaps my dad doesnt noe how to appreciate her. but realli...she's a great mum,a great sister (to my uncle and auntie), a great child (to my grandpa and grandma) and she's a great wife too.

my mum told me b4 a long time ago that if i were to have a girlfriend next tym, i muz treat her with lots of love and care and i muz learn to respect her always. i've always seen my dad and mum quarrel in the past and my mum is always crying after tt. i could really feel how hurt she was.

dear and i were talking abt not quarreling for at least 6 mths but it realli nvr occured to me tt we'll quarrel. of course tt's pretty idealistic,but i realli hope we wouldnt. i realli love her and i hope tt the way i'm feeling for her now would last forever. my parents did not have a successful relationship,so i MUZ learn from their mistakes and not make them in mine. but i MUZ also at the same tym,learn from my dad the kind of unconditional love he shows us, and from my mum how to be a level headed thinker and be able to handle all situations well.

i've also come to another conclusion. if i were to be able to shower my girlfriend with lots of love, and also always be very cool and calm, i muz start from those around me: my friends and family and perhaps strangers. i've always been very impatient wif my brother and i always flare up to snatch the computer from him.so from today i'll learn to talk to him nicely and be nicer to everyone. in tt way...it'll condition me to become someone hu's always loving and caring and calm.

oh.my. i tink i'm becoming so uncle-ish.jialat.hmmm...anw...i do hope wad i juz wrote made sense.haha.

vitamin L

2007-10-31T23:41:00.000+08:00

31st October 2007

ahhhhhh! i'm so happy happy happy. n i haven't been emo-ing for a long tym. perhaps vitamin L could be the cure to anything. i feel blessed to have Rhino in my life. thx for all my bros too. esp. jon,weili,clarence,gary,jason for always being there.thx lord for everything.i'm starting to appreciate everything i have now.really.i muz realli work hard for the Alevels! chiong! like wad weili said...convert tis power of love into energy to drive me for the exams. n i feel motivated.ahhhhh.life...=)

gift from god.

2007-10-28T11:32:00.000+08:00

28th October 2007

life has been a rollercoaster ride for mi tis 2 days,juz tt the rollercoaster juz gets stuck at the peak and nvr goes down. tt's my mood. everything's been looking well.i got out of the right side of my bed and i've been able to study well tis days too. ahhh. life's good. i've really got to thank all those hu helped mi along the way,esp. my bros and those new friends i made.its a gift from god.my friends are and so is she.

foto.

2007-10-23T00:26:00.000+08:00

23rd October 2007

lolx.was looking thru some of my childhood photographs when preparing my sis' bday present when i came across some fotos tt i have totally no recollection of. and i have to admit tt i was young and innocent then or i wldnt have taken those fotos. anw...haha.its pretty cute and i thot tt i might wanna share haha...lolx.

seriously hor its pretty obvious tt i look much better than my sis when we're young. n seriously hor i tink i look handsome when i was 4 yrs old. realli realli. now ah...haiz.

haha.tis one damn cute.tis one is on habit tt i carried all the way from when i was young.influenced by my uncle de.haha.now i even bring my notes to the toilet.lolx.but my sis stopped alr.(i tink lol.)

i have no idea why i even agreed to take tis pic.haha.but its cute la esp. the girl beside mi.lolx.n i tink lost my charm after 4 yrs old.wah kau!

lolx.tis one my youngest bro. damn cute la.u noe why i tink looks are impt? cuz when u're cute,u cld get away wif even murder. yea apparently tis foto was taken after my brother killed my hamster. and he juz sat there as if nth happened. tt look melted my heart and he got away wif murder! (no la i'm kidding abt the murder part haha)

actually there's one more but haha damn shy dun dare shy. but its actually a pic of mi and my sis in our swimming costumes and again i dunno why i posed for the camera again. haha.

they're right.a picture paints a thousand words.these fotos realli revived my childhood memories man. ahhhh....14 yrs ago...

wad a beautiful song...

2007-10-20T16:05:00.000+08:00

20th October 2007

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesnt stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

(chorus)
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I cant get near you now

Oh, cant you see it baby
Youve got me going crazy

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if Im with you
Ill take the chance

Oh, cant you see it baby
Youve got me going crazy

dun read tis. its juz plain whining.

2007-10-19T22:19:00.000+08:00

19 October 2007

i bet she noes abt it alr. but she's nonchalant abt it. i oso how it started. how i started to like her. i oso dunno the reason behind how ball-less i had been for the past 2 yrs. how i cld have bottled up all that emotions within myself and not let it out. i cld have done sthg abt it. but she had a bf and trying to go in between them was wrong. she broke up n i know i cld have done sthg. offer her more concern, be by her side to console her. but i did nth of tt sort. wad did it do then? nth. so much tt she doesn't know abt it until recently. wad a loser i'm.

i always try to joke wif her but i realised they were all not farni. i always thot i was a humourous person until i reflected 2dae. NO I'M NOT! wad r my jokes when i talk to guys? make fun of ppl,sae and do stupid things,talk dirty. n i believe tt i shldnt talk dirty to girls. i dunno abt tt though. i was told tt she dun like ppl to do stupid stuff. so i shldnt. and i dun realli wan to kip on making of her or ppl cuz wad big fuck am i to have the bloody right to kip making fun of ppl? so tt makes mi a boring guy? n girls dun like boring guys. wtf.

ok.someone told mi girls like romantic guys. haiz.mebe shld start learning french.another fren told mi girls like musically inclined guys.another fren told mi girls like fun guys.so which is it tt she likes? haha.

i'm super vexed super super super vexed. she's on my mind the whole tym nowadays. i miss her smile. even juz her presence. i always wanna see her and always try to grab opportunities to do so. but i always regret it. cuz when she's not with me,i'll start to tink abt her even more. ahhhhhhhhh. hormones. 2 yrs and its still her.

11 days to A levels and some good fren of mine had to tell mi i have a competitor and i'm losing. so yea wad do u wan mi to do abt it hurh? take action now? tell her how much i like her for 2 yrs? in the first place, have i done enuf to touch her heart? why is the other guy winning? its juz so wrong to be tinking abt all this now but i can't help it.

i have one fren.good looking and girls juz come after him n he doesnt have to do anything. but i noe i'm not and girls wldnt come after me cuz of my looks. so i'm always trying to be a good boy with a good character cuz she mentioned b4 she isnt superficial. guess i've to take more initiatives. saying i like her here wun work. i've to do sthg. like she said b4 "guys shld make the move"

in the meantime.i guess its juz not the right tym for all this. its A levels man, A levels! and to my tt good fren hu will read tis entry, pls dun do anything 2pid nor tag anything stupid.

blocked blog.

2007-10-15T00:39:00.000+08:00

15th October 2007

damn it.i'm always blocked from my own blog by singnet's filtering service for no bloody reason. they said i HAVE ADULT CONTENT here. right...mebe its juz the swearing...

plastic surgery.

2007-10-13T00:55:00.000+08:00

13th October 2007

juz another random thought as usual. i was tinking of going for plastic surgery and restructure my facial looks, implant hair, liposuction and lasik. haha. hmmm...i tink the first 2 r most impt in the list. i was wondering if plastic surgery could juz reshape ur whole face by moving cartilage here and there, inject some baby fats into my cheeks. hmmm...plastic surgery sounds cool but dun realli noe wad're the implications leh. like will a person hu has unnatural beauty be accepted by society? would the modifications be permanent? will u still age if ur whole face is plastic? lolx...hmmm mebe i shd look up for some courses on plastic surgery in the uni. sounds like sthg cool tt i wld want to embark on.

anw. yesterday *referring to 11th october was farewell assembly. rather meaningful assembly and kc leong n miss k are damn farni. went out wif some class ppl to bukit batok country club for laser challenge and bowling. then met up wif rest of class at somerset heeren village for dinner at 6.30. like i said...i'll miss SA.

random la.

2007-10-10T19:39:00.000+08:00

10th October 2007

jing hao. u're too distracted by too mani things. a'levels is in 3 weeks time and its time to work. i mean WORK! leave everything aside and study. i mean its juz 3 weeks and tt's it. ur future depends on tt piece of ppr tt u wld be receiving in march nxt yr. not juz future as in studies or work, but also mani other aspects of life. seriously, singapore's standard of living is not rising at all. student's non-material aspects of living are highly compromised. fuck it.

anw jon's top 20 in skl.so happy for him.tmr he'll be receiving some award thingy.haiz.how i wish i could be up there too.but nvm,there's still the A levels, where i would get my first A (hopefully) or mebe even 2 or 3 or 4 or 5. haha. tmr is oso the last day of skl.farewell assembly.take fotos.sae byebye to teachers and frens.and tis made mi realise how much i love skl actually, although i complain abt it all the tym. the gym.the track.the library.the teachers.my frens.the pull-up bar.the LT.the CC.the hall.the basketball court.mebe even the toilet.haha.everything played a part in making my jc life memorable.frens r impt. lemme quote myself: "frens are for life". haha. random entry.

feelings.

2007-10-08T18:47:00.000+08:00

8th October 2007

i realli dunno how to make u be tickled at everything i sae. nope i dun wanna be a clown in your life.i juz wanna u to enjoy my presence as much as i enjoy urs.gimme tym.i'm learning.

uni...

2007-10-05T19:49:00.000+08:00

5th October 2007

yesterday came across tis website that can download lotsa music. http://www.esnips.com/ quite cool. got jap, korean, chinese, ang moh songs. but its kindda tricky on how to download. haha. GO FIGURE IT OUT URSELF or i'll be caught for promoting piracy. disclaimer: me coming across tis website doesnt mean i'm downloading anything from it. nope nope i'm not downloading frm there. =.="

2dae was quite a farni day. firstly, it was supposed to be a super long day but it seemed rather short. i went to skl onli at 9 tho...

had bio tut till 10.30 then a 2 hr break till 12.30 which is GP. during the break, jon, xuan feng, gary n i were at the library toking a lot of cock. mainly abt our future career. the one abt jon n jason was damn farni. jon wanted to be a doctor while jason a nurse.haha. then i joked tt jon instead of using stethoscope to listen a woman's heartbeat, wld use his ears instead.then jason wld be jon's assistant as nurse ma. then said tt jason wears a tight nurse uniform and high heels. haha. damn farni cuz jason has hairy legs.

then we had a 2 hr GP cuz 1 hr formal lesson + 1 hr consultation. then after the consultation, we were talking to miss *** abt wad course she took at uni. then she said english. haha then gary asked her whether she was in the same class as mr yeo. haha. then she gave tt kind of =.=" face. haha. damn farni. it was the same face across mani teachers' when we tried to relate them to mr yeo. haha. then miss *** said some stuff abt mr yeo tt we all agreed wif and hmmmm...haha...haha...

oh oh. bought one whole stack of other skl bio prelim pprs. sianz. shit. lost count on how mani days liao. erm 20 days la 20 days la. juz to scare myself.

mock mock mock!

2007-10-03T21:08:00.000+08:00

3rd October 2007

2dae's a tiring day. cuz of GP mock exam. shaggged. sighs. it was kindda OKAY i guess. but guess wad sthg farni happened 2dae. 2dae after mock ppr 1 went wif gary to buy ramly burger from cafe. then eating on the way back ma. then damn farni. caught by OM somewhere outside CC.

OM: "why u eating here? come here."

JH: "erm...cuz having mock exam then got short break. nid go back quickly"

OM: "u go there sit down eat. later i hang u on the bamboo tree by ur necktie then u noe"

=.="

haha. the OM so farni one. but i didnt noe he's the OM until 2dae. haha. lolx...

oh oh. tis song frm jolin new album quite meaningful:

能感覺你手很暖和　能感覺你是特別的
當我的手被你牽著　在街頭在風中放縱

隨你到世界最盡頭　隨你上山去放煙火
當你唱著　生日快樂　我感動　你讓我受寵

＊我不再怕什麼　躲什麼　我只想知道你在想什麼
　今天起我的心貼近我的耳朵
　聽你輕輕的　輕輕的　輕輕的說　到底我是你的什麼

我不再怕什麼　躲什麼(說愛我)
我只想知道你愛不愛我(怕什麼)
現在我安靜的　貼在你的胸口
要你說　聽你說　說愛我

我認定你是愛我的　我認定你是認真的
你會愛我天長地久　全世界為我們祝賀

ENOJY! =)

er tong jie kuai le =)

2007-10-01T21:02:00.000+08:00

1st October 2007

2dae's children's day. year 2007. n it made mi realise how long i haven't celebrated children's day. 6 YEARS...simply cuz i'm over-aged? haha. but i really miss children's day. although i used to complain how retarded those performances were, but now i seem to miss them. mebe cuz we're leaving skl for good in a couple of weeks tym. no more uniforms, no more such strange performances, no more paternalistic treatment by our teachers. HAPPY CHILDREN's DAY! haha...

hmmm...went kbox for the first tym wif ahwei and shaun yesterday at cineleisure. although it was ex...(imagine paying $24 dollars to sing in front of a screen).but it was realli enjoyable. for once sang my hearts out like nobody's business but of course didnt noe how i sounded of course. haha...ah wei's singing...wow...first tym heard her sing...n...hmmm...i'm lost for words. shaun's was ok...haha i understand cuz so mani songs were too high for us. but luv it anyways.

A's in 30 DAYS. diu. tt truth stinks.

piano

2007-09-29T23:01:00.000+08:00

29th September 2007

hmmmm...i suddenly juz luv the piano. i haven touched the piano since p6 but recently juz picked it up again. juz finished learning a song...tian shi by mayday. i realli like sitting beside my sister and listen to her play the piano. i can juz sit there quietly and listen. tt kind of feeling...is juz great. while i listen i can ponder abt mani things...and i feel very relaxed...u can juz let ur mind wander away. tt's why i always tell my sister to play those emo songs. haha.

i oso wan to master the instrument. i wish hor...one day the girl i like can sit beside me i play for her. juz a wish. haha. sounds 2pid hor. but realli i wish tt it would happen. haha. but sounds pretty impossible. jio girls tis kind of thing hor i damn hopeless one...very shy. haha. die. i'm emo-ing.

bu ming bai.

2007-09-29T00:36:00.000+08:00

29th September 2007

hmmm...sometimes i juz dun understand myself. why m i so easily affected by somethings leh. why leh? aiya fuck shant tink abt it. muz concentrate on studies. now left 32 days, 23 hrs and 21 mins. gtg sleep. tmr meeting jon at tp lib to study. study study study!

pain la...pain...

2007-09-26T22:59:00.000+08:00

26th September 2007

wth! i didnt noe facial was tt painful. 2dae i went for facial. my first tym. quite comfortable at first...but the squeze pimple part sux.n i didnt i had so much pimples or blackheads or oil...wah squeese until one whole ball of cotton used up. then got one part the person squeese until the oil spray on the swtich beside my face. she even showed it to me. haha. the mask part very comfortable. cold cold one. then can sleep. haha. shiok. but seriously...the squeesing part...my tears came out. damn painful. heng man enuf nvr scream. the lady said mechanical method more effective...used machine one not so good effect. wah kau...then all the cream all tt so ex. siao. haiz. see alr oso heart pain.

mooncake festival.

2007-09-25T20:25:00.000+08:00

September 25th 2007

wah. 2dae mooncake festival. special day of the year to eat mooncake. 2dae i saw the moon and it was quite round. and i was tinking. wld our environmental problems make the moon not round anymore? then wouldnt ppl have to re-do the whole lunar calender again cuz the moon isnt round on the 15th day of the eighth month anymore. hmmmm...interesting.

watched 200 pounds of beauty last friday on crunchyroll.com last friday. the movie's realli good seriously. the part where she was giving a speech during her concert was extremely poignant. very touching. then i realised crunchyroll actually have alot of movies uploaded and drama serials. now watching some HK drama serial abt lawyer one. quite nice oso. haha.

well...got back most of my results. got improvement but i still hope to do better in the A's. but sian...got S for both of my H1 GP n econs. damn jialat. haiz.

pissed.

2007-09-20T22:18:00.000+08:00

September 20th 2007

ahhhhh! i'm pissed. i'm disappointed with my results. esp. econs. damn sad. i thot i was going to do well for my prelims in most subjs. but...haiz...haha. saddening. depressing. well...mebe miss chia's rite...we're indeed an emode generation. i hate exams. exp. the post exam period. ahhhhhh! gonna find sthg to vent all my frustrations. NVM! still got 42 days! not all hope is gone. JIAYOU PPL! its the final lap!

hol.

2007-09-18T22:42:00.000+08:00

September 18th 2007

wow. 2dae's a holiday. happy. a real break frm skl, no work. haha finally a break after tt rubbish sept holidays i had. haha...happy. blissful.

anw...hit the gym once again after a month. and my arms are aching after yesterday's bowling. aiya...getting old and weak liao. anw...went bro's gym planet fitness at chevron house. at raffles place. first tym go so high class gym. realli damn cool. i felt so wrong when i got out of the mrt station. everyone r in long sleeves or suits! while i m in shorts, t-shirt and slippers. gawd.

entered chevron house. and had to surrender my ez-link for a visitor pass. then tap the visitor pass on a security gantry b4 i could access the lift! like some immigration security liddat. wow. took lift up. and MY! the gym is like super big can??? 2 floors and there're like over 20 treadmills and bikes and free-weights and all. its damn cool. and the toilet. damn nice and classy oso. and there's a steam room. haha. high class. i'm such a noob. haha. when gymed for abt 3 hrs until like 5 then went play pool at paradiz centre. then went PS for dinner. then met jon and went for pool again.

arhhhh. singapore's so boring. can't they have more things in town to do? bleahx. wait. or izit juz mi? hahahahahahahahaha. =)

EXAMS!

2007-09-17T21:01:00.000+08:00

September 17th 2007

muahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!! exams r over!!!!!!!! f**k exams! wahahahahahahaha! woohoooooooooo! lolx....no more stress! haha...lolx...at least for a week or so. lolx. now to tink of it, the dreadful A's are a step closer! but...its realli time for a breather...a month plus of mugging. dun rest will die. haha...

2dae went out wif class guys. we didnt noe where to go and ended up wasting alot of tym trying to decide. jason suggested ice skating at jurong, but jeremy n xf objected cuz it was too far. we wanted to watch a movie, but clarence n i complained tt we watched movies too often. its time for a change. then we ended up going to town for ajisen ramen at takashimaya. its 2pid lol. exam ended at 9.15 but we wasted over an hr in skl walking to ptp mrt trying to decide wad to do. we reached somerset close to 11 and ended up waiting till 12 for ajisen. haha. andrea clique went to the zoo i tink...she asked gary n gary asked us, but all of us didnt want to. haha.

at cine, we wanted to go to the damn cool room wif lan, movies, xbox, playstation. i heard from bro its damn cool. $20 an hr for the room...n i tink its pretty worth it. but we can't go in cuz we were in skl uniform. and it opens at 12 too. sighs.

ajisen. noob mi. first tym eating there. supposedly 50% off according to gary, but end up still so ex...$11 plus for my set. lolx. clarence ordered shashimi which is very nicely done up, but the portion damn small. they made it into the shape of a rose. lolx. $6.80. faints.

after lunch, wandered ard and all of us were lost at wad to do. ended up going home. but jon, jason, clarence n i went kovan for bowling. very fun but very expensive. and i'm a bloody noob. but learnt how to make the ball curl liao. haha but not always successful. lolx. muz train more... haha...

well...tt's abt the whole day. boring for the end of exams. zzzzz....

OH OH! bought jay chou's secret yesterday and watched it again. i still find it damn nice. but but first tym still the best. the twist was simply too unexpected. but now i find the guey lun mei not pretty liao. tt tym attracted by her act cuteness...now see her action still quite cute but aiya...not pretty liao not pretty liao. haha...

home?

2007-09-15T08:11:00.000+08:00

September 15th 2007

guess while many of you're busy studying for prelims, there's only me who's so crazy to do thise kind of thing during this kind of the year. haiz...had a realli heated argument wif my dad last night and i left home after that. yupp...i didnt go home last night.

it really isnt my fault seriously. lemme tell u all wad happened. my relationship wif my dad is pretty strained as u all noe...n my dad and mum r like those kind of going-to-divorce couple. no i shldnt even call them a couple...they dun even talk to each other now. its realli very sad to be in this kind of family...seriously. and sometimes u get realli envious of those families in movies where the dad kisses mum goodbye before he leaves for work, tucks his children into bed and tells them bedtime stories b4 they sleep or even like go out as a family. but look...all these r missing in my life. my dad hates my mum, n my mum hates my dad. they dun tok to each other, much less kiss or whatsoever. a meal tgt as a family? nah...forget it...i dun even consider it a family dinner...it feels so weird. its too quiet!

yupp...so i told all of these to my dad, hoping tt he could understand the kind of situation i'm in...but i didnt tell him personally...i emailed him. n instead of trying to show concern...he flared up yesterday and started defending his plight and a heated argument started. he told me to leave home, and so i did. i went to bathe, changed and was preparing to leave when he suddenly told mi tt he didnt mean wad he said. heck! i packed my bio notes and a spare change of clothes and went downstairs. another round of heated argument started. anw...forget about the details...i shant elaborate on them. anyway...i juz left home n stayed overnite at jon's place. seriously...i don't know where the hell i went wrong. i realli don't. seriously i'm puzzled. i'm not a delinquent. i study, i dun smoke gamble take drugs join gang or wadeva...but...i realli dun understand...WHY???

mebe i was wrong abt leaving home. but sometimes i realli can't accept how he treats my mum. no he doesnt beat her or wad but its juz sthg i shant elaborate on too. it realli sux to be living in this kind of family. next time...if i ever do get married and have kids of my own...i'll never...never...follow my dad's footsteps.

black chicken.

2007-09-10T22:38:00.000+08:00

September 10th 2007

omg. i'm damn scared of chickens now. my dad...make for me chicken essence everyday since dunno how long ago...i everyday drink until i wan vomit. omg...tinking of it now makes mi feel like puking. n my uncle... he will buy this ginseng black chicken soup for mi twice a week. i oso drink until wan vomit liao. the chicken black one. skin oso black. whole thing black. meat black. soup oso abit black. omg sometimes they oso give u the chicken feet. then u noe chicken feet muz put in the mouth eat one ma...then u'll feel the chicken feet tickling ur tongue. omg...damn disgusting. sianz...i'm not going to touch KFC in my life...ever...

oh. took up new hobby recently. eating dark chocolates. started wif xuan feng's 75% dark choc. n now i love the taste. but my dad onli bought mi the 70% one. shall go find those wad 99% ones to try...my tutor sae its nice??!?!?! lolx.

was supposed to slp at 8 n wake up at 12am to study till 6am. but couldnt slp. so went studying. end up cannto concentrate.omg.i'm so gonna die for chem tmr. n wad i'm doing here? blogging! wth...

6 days to end of prelims!

3 more days...

2007-09-09T10:56:00.000+08:00

yea! 3 more days to end of prelims! well...not quite but mcq ppr can relax abit (i wish). its has been over a month of mugging now n its surprising tt i can still hang in there. but i realli turns mi off when i look at my notes now, esp. bio. well...heng i still left genetics for tmr's exams, but...HAVEN TOUCHED CHEM SINCE PPR 3 ENDED!!!! jialat...inorganic chem sure die. n maths...i hope the ppr wld be doable...haiz.

tt aside, found out tt TP library is quite gd to study. yupp went there yesterday for the 2nd tym wif jon...tt idiot went there 4 days in a row n stayed from the tym it opens until it closes almost everyday. diu.

saw andrea's fren melissa at TP yesterday oso. n there's oso alot of SA ppl there. damn jialat...like going to skl but not in uniform onli. haha.

tmr's the day. BIO! hope i can get a C at least. pls pls....but m i asking for too much? onli passed once n now asking for a C. hahahahahaha... oh oh...jet lee new movie rogue assasin. looks damn nice. haha...mebe on wednesday after math ppr. haha. =)

mug mug!

2007-09-06T00:29:00.000+08:00

6th September 2007

yea! 2 days ago completed my 2nd 10km liao. =) i was tinking of this. after completing my 5th 10k hor...i'll start taking timing liao. then increase my mileage after 10th run. yupp.

anw...2dae (or yesterday) went mugging wif jon n jason at tp library. damn conducive place. so quiet. onli complain is the chair...sit long alr backside pain. went there at 10 and went off at 9. haha. oh...jon said sthg damn farni. he 5+ suddenly said "wah shit stomachache nid go shit then later go eat" yupp...he not tinking properly i tink. laufed like crazi. wad he meant was after going toilet he want go out but sthg to eat. haha. den met tze wei at delifrance when jason n i was going for lunch. she sae she got sunburnt. then kip trying to hide her face. haha. hide hide hide...end up i still saw her face. =.=" haiz. nxt tym rmb go buy lunch tt tym put sunblock hor.

after mugging met bro at 9.45 for pool then after tt went supper at chomp chomp. den damn jialat...took wrong bus go until ang mo kio. nxt tym go home muz rmb muz take white plate 136 not the red plate one. haha.

sept. 1st.

2007-09-01T22:04:00.000+08:00

September 1st, 2007

woah.its september already.time realli flies.i still rmb the day i was in k1. always crying and making a fuss trying not to go to skl. oh n i rmb in k2 my teacher always tell me go in front of class tell story one...cuz there's tis book tt i cld memorise realli well. n its in chinese. then teacher jesicca was damn nice to me one...always give me storybooks. then i rmb one yr my parents bought a cake and came down to my kindergarden to celebrate my birthday wif my classmates. realli memorable. oh...last tym rite i got tis fren in k2 i tink then kids being kids we always have to hold hand and line up one wad. then last tym i always have alot of mosquito bites on my hands n feet one, then my tis fren's sister (dunno why same class as him) always tell him dun hold hand wif me, sae i got aids. wth la.

then power rangers was my favourite cartoon. every saturday i'll tape the episodes down and re-watch and re-watch them. i like it alot then dunno why...but now when i see it on kidscentral, i find it damn lame n will lauf at myself. dunno how mani video tapes i wasted alr. n each was like $5. haha.

in primary skl i damn naughty one la. p1 still same as kindergarden lor...everytime cry then dun wan go to skl one. then i got tis fren sunny...n another malay fren then we always go to the electical generator then then we will always act like power rangers liddat go punch the wall. then i'll always pretend i damn strong, punch alr not pain. then sunny n my the other fren punch alr then sae damn pain, then i'll act man sae "not pain wad...punch more strong alr not pain" haha...childish childish. then p5 p6 hor i always fight wif a singh one. use metal bar (those use to secure those metal cupboard one) to beat his turban. then he will run to tell my principal then, miss poh. wah then damn jialat, everytym have to see tchr and go principal office. haha. then i'll always sabo rashpal (the sikh's name). one tym i saw him throw the malay store's fork into the eco garden, then i go tell our form tchr. haha...then my form teacher he go make him go into the eco garden find the fork. lolx.

sec 1 to sec 4 i was quite guai one. yea...so nth much to tok abt one lor. but realli miss my sec 1 and sec 2 classmates but like lost touch wif mani of them, esp. those closer ones like hanbin and kevin chow. dunno how r them now.

well...in jc...its like going to be over in a flash. n tt means no more education in a formal skl liao. as in like wear a uniform n stuff. i tink i'm gonna miss tt. there r mani regrets tt i had...like for e.g. quitting bball in sec 2 after joining for one yr. haiz. then join library club. omg. another regret is why nvr get a more active social life last tym. like go a mixed skl? or church cell grps? now still very shy leh jialat.

wah...write so long liao ah. dunno why suddenly tink abt all tis. haha. muz be exam stress. lolx...

anw......2dae finally finished my first 10k run! =) i tink slight more than 10k ba...n i took abt 1 hr 5 mins. well quite ok for my first tym i tink.

i ran frm home to beatty sec, then cut thru the bishan park connector to sajc, then ran 3.5 rounds ard my sec skl 2.4 route then ran to indian temple, to macs, then back to sajc again then ran another round ard the sec skl 2.4 route then ran back home. i tink run at nite quite good. very cooling and nobody. yea! damn happy wif 2dae's performance. =)

its teacher's day. a very happy teacher's day to all teachers out there! =)

A

2007-08-31T20:00:00.000+08:00

August 31st, 2007

HSA juz msg mi tt they're in need of grp A blood. ok on tmr go donate. mebe ask my mum whether she wans to go too.

2dae went running wanted 10km but...haha...lousy la...half way tired liao. then went toa payoh wif jason to swim... actually more like get into the sun...end up getting sun burnt now. jialat in hol mood liao...cannot cannot... muz be focused and disciplined. haha.

sec skl.

2007-08-31T00:10:00.000+08:00

August 30th, 2007

wah shiok! a breather after 4 days. went back to sec skl met up wif my sec skl teachers and my sec 4 mates. alot of teachers said i have changed and my face more angular or wadeva all tt is, but miss chua's ridiculous. the whole grp hu went hor...she more or less recognise them but wth...she asked whether i foreigner anot leh. then she asked everyone fer their names but she skipped me. then i ask her to ask mi, then she sae "u ah...nvm la" jialat jialat. miss chua is last tym our batch hor considered one of the most chio teacher. jialat she cannot recognise me.last tym i was a damn good student can.all the assignment got do one then my last final sec 2 exam art got A leh. wah she forget me leh. damn sad.

then after tt went wif all of them to toa payoh sakae sushi eat. eat until siao cannot explode. reach home alr hor...burp then got sushi come out.

tmr gonna exercise.gym.

prelims.

2007-08-27T20:31:00.000+08:00

August 27th, 2007

yawnzzzzz...i'm feeling all sick n tired frm studying...seriously.haiz...i m all in nid of sleep and exercise and a social life. its all realli lacking in my life now. n i realised...everyone's like not coming online anymore. well...at least i dun see them online as often nowadays and its probably due to the exams, i tink haha. wad a joke. exams.

anw...prelims started 2dae. GP's okay.i tink.haha. but econs realli killed mi. sianz. my 15 mark essay i onli write half a page.jialat. not enuf tym. n 2dae's super tiring cuz exams all the way till 5. exams r such a waste of tym. one whole day gone liddat haiz. heng the rest of the ppr quite short ones. yupp. tmr's bio n i m not sure whether i m prepared anot. haha. like 2dae...i thot i was ready fer econs, but yet...haha.stumped.

gtg study bio liao. or else tmr kena stumped. haha.

7.

2007-08-20T09:47:00.000+08:00

August 20th, 2007

nope. i didnt disappear frm the surface of the world. its juz tt prelims are reallliiiiii looming fast. its now 7 MORE DAYS TO THE PRELIMS! yes...the 30th student council has a counting down board in the cafe to remind us tt, as though we wld even nid reminders. lolx. finished bio n almost all of econs. but majority of chem is left untouched and maths is half way done??? wah jialat hope by sunday can finish. haiz.

secret

2007-08-10T15:14:00.000+08:00

August 10th, 2007

exams.

2007-08-09T18:58:00.000+08:00

August 9th, 2007

arghhhh.been down wif flu for days already.and got a sore throat yesterday frm eating chocolate the other day and not drinking water after tt. i hate exams seriously. it sucks the life out of u and u simply can't enjoy wad u wanna do. like yesterday...went out for movie rite...immediately rushed home after tt to study cuz i was feeling guilty. and i can't help feeling tt way cuz my mind ALWAYS wanders when i'm studying. bleahx. less than 3 weeks, n i'm 1.5 days behind schedule. ahhhhhhhh!

tell ur a secret: "bu neng shuo de mi mi" really damn nice and guey lun mei veri cute.

guey lun mei

2007-08-08T15:22:00.000+08:00

August 8th, 2007

juz watched secret wif jason n jon. omg. it rocks la. n now i'm infatuated wif guey lun mei. damn cute.

die.

2007-08-07T22:20:00.000+08:00

August 7th, 2007

signed up fer standard chartered marathon at the end of the year. damn jialat. i run usually at most 6km, onli once went to 9km.n now 42.195km. bleahx. haha...2dae went skl gym tried running 10km...almost died. but didnt manage to do it 10k at one shot. did in intervals of like 5-1-2-0.4-0.6-1. ok the numbers sound retarded i noe. but one day i'll make it 10k at one shot. but wtf...its barely 1/4 of the full length.

then 2dae mr yeo finally treated the class to the meal he promised us. we got ourselves $225 worth of pizza hut? lolx. 5 pizzas, 5 bake rice, 36 drumlets and one pepsi if i'm not wrong. lolx...cool shit.

oh man. its 20 days to prelims. n it feels like i juz took O levels yesterday. haha.

tsk tsk.

2007-08-06T20:17:00.000+08:00

August 6th, 2007

2dae morning decided to pon skl but intended to go fer econs xtra tut cuz the h/w tt miss choo gave us was super diff.then i was tinking 2.30 to 3.30 lesson then after tt go gym.but then...andrea msg-ed to sae tt miss lai on MC then econs shifted up to 12.30. so i was tinking: "ok go home at 2.30 to mug after GP". n so i did. went to skl at 12.30 then vernon told mi GP was cancelled. =.=" so it means the day ends at 1.30pm. n since the class, as usual, strolled to class for tuts, reached class at 12.45, and it means it was onli 45 mins of skl fer mi. =.=" diu!

haiz...since i'm going to be in skl fer onli 45 mins, i didnt wan to waste water cuz my uniform wear 45 mins onli, wash oredi waste water, n so i stayed back in library to study wif jon, clarence n gary till 5.30. wad a day. haha.

tmr is tuesday. i'm looking forward to it cuz there's PE. GYM!

Some friends are forever.

2007-08-02T23:09:00.000+08:00

Sometimes in life,
you find a special friend,
someone who changes your life
by being a part of it...

Sometimes you find a friend
who makes you laugh
until you can't stop,
someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world.

Someone who convinces you
that there is an unlocked door
just waiting for you to open it.
This is forever friendship.

When you're down,
and the world seems dark and empty,
your forever friend lifts you up in spirit
and makes that dark and empty world
suddenly seem bright and full.

Your forever friend gets you through
the hard times, the sad times,
and the confused times.

If you turn and walk away,
your forever friend follows.
If you lose your way,
your forever friend guides you
and cheers you on.

Your forever friend holds your hand
and tells you that
everything is going to be okay.

And if you find such a friend,
you feel happy and complete,
because you need not worry.
You have a forever friend for life,
and forever has no end.

freedom of expression?

2007-07-27T18:57:00.000+08:00

bleahx...being green with envy stinks and i don't know what made me feel like that.and something just struck me: a blog is a something like a modern journal, where you express your thoughts and feelings freely and probably vent all your frustrations on. But sometimes i can't help but feel that this inventions ain't that great afterall, because the truth is, you don't really have the luxury of freedom of expression on a blog especially when you're doing so on the world wide web! google it and your blog appears and everyone gets to read all about you. so perhaps a journal is a much more noble invention? at least not the whole world would get to read your journal entries by accident. oh well, sometimes i really want to really tell my friends about all that's on my mind so that it won't bother me as much as it does now. but can i really do that? haha...sometimes i wonder.

learning fest. 2

2007-07-26T22:32:00.000+08:00

wad a day 2dae. bball then volleyball then guitar fer learning fest. bball was quite alrite i guess. taught some passing, dribbling and stuff liddat and played some matches wif others in which jem, vernon, gary n i was totally thrashed. 7-2 and 7-1 fer 2 games. the last game b4 we went off was better but we didnt track the score. anw...volleyball was great too. learnt all the mthds on how to hit the ball how to serve and hit how to play the game. but there's juz so much to learn in such a short period of time, so i ended up juz kip smacking the ball during the game, w/o tinking. and its pretty confusing wad center lar blah blah blah then the passing part required alot of coordination within the team which we lacked. haha. i tink the way i played was farni or wad cuz vernon kept on laufing. haiz dunno why la. ok mebe i suck. haha.

the guitar too. i realli interested in learning guitar now lar. mr marcus chan when he demonstrated to us how to play hor...wah like damn zai...all the plucking n all tt. damn impressed la. but firstly i realli nid to learn how to change chord first. the most basic one from D to A oso cannot liao. damn jialat. but at least learnt some basic strumming lor. yupp it was veri interesting.

after the course went watch simpsoms wif shaun n tze wei. both super ponners. pon like half the skl days. simpsoms was hilarious...some damn lame oso but still farni. the movie was onli abt an hr and 15 mins long. it was damn farni at first kip laufing like hell...but after a while like 30 mins or so u can't lauf liao. dunno izit lauf until cannot lauf or found the jokes too lame liao. haha but overall its still a gd movie! =)

learning fest.

2007-07-25T23:44:00.000+08:00

wah learning fest is so cool shit seriously. learnt guitar n bowling 2dae. tmr will be more...bball, volleyball and guitar. n i juz realised tt there's a place fer bowling so near my home haha.

sleep.

2007-07-24T14:57:00.000+08:00

sianz. been feeling lethargic and tired all day long tis few days. juz dunno wad's wrong wif mi. haiz. everyday go to skl n all i feel like doing is to go home n slp. tmr's learning fest but my course onli starts at 10am. got an urge to go to skl onli at 10 tmr haha.

paranoid.

2007-07-22T21:26:00.000+08:00

lolx...it was damn farni juz now when i was walking home after tuition. there was tis old man hu got off the same bus as mi, 133. i was walking behind him and he was also walking walking...normally. then before the turn to my house, the old man suddenly picked up speed. n he kept on turning ard to look at mi. i followed suit and walked faster. and he walked even faster. so fast tt i can hear his shoes make the sound "clog clog" when he walks. n he kept turning ard to see whether he has shook mi off oredi. but i was still behind. haha. then he pretended to make a turn to the road to my home but then he filtered back to his original route. of course i didnt to continue following him la but its realli damn farni. i tink tt he tinks i m a stalker or sthg...trying to rob him. haha. paranoid.

break it.

2007-07-22T00:29:00.000+08:00

went for rapture 2dae. met mabel n jon fer dinner at tp pastamania first b4 taking 157 to mediacorp. tis tym tried some vegetarian pasta...all mushroom one. then asked to mix all the diff kinds of pasta and ended up wif a very interesting dish. hmmm...sort of taste better liddat haha.

honestly speaking, i preferred last yr's rapture, cuz it was sumhow much more interesting. more hip hop dances. but 2dae's had special guests frm The Dance Floor, of which STYLES FROM BEYOND rock the most. i like break dances alot cuz its realli cool and i feel tt it could sumthing tt i cld use to vent my frustrations. haha...so mebe i'll pick tt up after the A's? haha. oh...yesterday's ice cream buffet wasnt tt great afterall. sianz...got sum realli serious stomachache at nite. kept on rushing to the toilet fer abt an hour. but it got better after drinking sum hot coffee. lolx...a remedy? lolx.

gotta turn in soon.feeling a little tipsy juz from drinking some wine. siao siao. i suck. haha.

ice cream buffet.

2007-07-20T18:14:00.000+08:00

zai zai...skl's extremely boring 2dae and the weather's freaking warm. so decided to go fer ice-cream after skl. went hougang mall and feasted on 4 tubs of gelare ice cream. haha actually 3, the other one belonged to clarence but nevertheless we took some of it. 25% discount and we found it to be much cheaper than fantastic five, so we got the tubs lor.

wad we ordered: tiramisu, wild strawberry, chocolate indulgence (?) and clarence's minty dunno-wad's-the-name ice-cream. its super sinful seriously. so much sweet stuff in an hour. haha. but like wad i said, its an ice cream buffet. so yea...kindda nice to try some crazi stuff once in a while.

GELARE.

jon and clarence feasting. haha. jem n ver dun wanna their fotos to be taken.lolx.

choc,tiramisu,strawberry,mint and clarence's shit soup.

blink blink.

2007-07-15T21:52:00.001+08:00

bought a new chain 2dae. simple design but veri nice. saw it last wk actually but i knew it frm tt point onwards i muz own it. haha.

not realli clear in the foto but its supposed to be some blink blinks attached to the bar thingy. veri nice. n not ah beng summore. haha.

sianz.

2007-07-15T01:53:00.001+08:00

sianz.can't accept the fact tt prelims r fast looming near when bt2's juz over last wk. haha. its crazi!

anw...took some nanyang concept test 2dae and found it crazi why i'm taking it. haha. watched harry potter on friday, found it so-so, like wad vernon said "not sae no good but not sae veri good" yea tt kind of feeling. yea...dunno why recently feeling damn emo and lack of energy. kip on dosing off at the theatres. earlier tis wk it was die hard 4.0 and on friday some parts of harry potter too! =.=" it all began wif "inconvinient truth", then pirates and now all these! ??? why leh. haha...oso dunno.

things been strain bet me n my dad. actually its more of me. he's talking to me normally n me to him normally too. but i aint juz feeling comfortable talking to him nowadays. finding him to be a control freak hu's trying to interfere wif all aspects of my life. he didnt allow mi to go fer night cycling, been complaining abt mi being out almost everyday last wk... sianz. ok...mebe its juz mi haha. but things seemed better 2dae. i aint feeling so sore 2dae. but...can't pay attention while studying tis few days. mind kept wandering off. haiz...muz be the aftermath of bt2. wake up quick!

its wednesday.

2007-07-11T23:45:00.000+08:00

haha... i tink change back to old template fer tym being b4 i get the new one. haha...hmmm...recently realli into tis song by wang leehom, called forever day, yong yuan de di yi tian. the lyrics damn nice and song got lotsa feel in it.haha.

anw.jon made it past heats and semis, n going on to finals tmr. xf made it past heats but not the semis. super ke xi. they realli trained damn hard lor.xf shld get into semis lar.i realli hope jon wins tmr.n wow...do the skl proud.i realli wanna go n watch his performance...my fren leh...but its at 1.30pm...i still have econs n bio lecture to go b4 skl ends. so shld i go or shld i not? wad a dilemna. =.="

oh got back econs. sianz got an E. but kindda expected it. yupp. so so far got 38.75 points liao if i include chinese. hehe...hope i'll do well fer bio when i get it back tmr. pray pray.

今天看见永远的第一天
终于实现我和你的诺言
时间将一切拉远
爱在心里没有改变
今天看见爱飞过地平线
让我说完我对你的誓言
这是另一个起点我一定爱你到永远
(ooh今天看见爱的第一天)

monday blues.

2007-07-09T20:43:00.001+08:00

ah...tis new blog skin's juz pissing mi off.juz can't get the date to show.

anw...been feeling pretty lousy tis few days.muz be emotions getting a hold of mi.n my bro...he juz sms mi to tell mi tt he caught saw his crush wif her bf, which he nvr seen b4. he always thot tt she was still unattached.but hu noes...haiz.

got a E for math...(sianz nvr practise hard enuf) and probably wld get a C fer chemistry. well... hopefully bio grades will move up too. hu noes. hahaz...

thx for the bday stuff. =)

2007-07-07T12:04:00.000+08:00

heyy blogspot.i'm realli touched by all the stuff tt my frens have done for my birthday.all tt stuff they prepared for mi, the gifts they got for mi, the tym they spent wif mi, their greetings on the birthday card, staying up till 12am to sae happy birthday, their sms-es, their friendly handshakes, friendster testimonials, everything lar...

i dun tink contents on the bday card was anything confidential. yupp so gonna post them all up.i was reading it at abt 11.30pm yesterday nite, in the sequence tt is posted here. n seriously i was moved by every note, esp. jason's.

Hey Brother. here's wishing you a Happy 18th Birthday!! But with another year that has passed, it may also mean a higher rate of hairfall =p Don't stress too much & aggravate the situation. Take care & God Bless -JON a.k.a Spiderman

Hi HaoHao, You have been a good fren who brightens up my JC life. Continue joking and bring joy to everyone around you. And just want to wish you a happy birthday! =) - OXF

hello Jinghao! Happy 18th Birthday! May all your wishes & dreams come true. Lets go to the gym man! Haha. Takkaire. -Mabel

Hello Jinghao! XD Happy 18th Birthday! Been a pleasure to have you around in class. All the best fot everything and stay funky -Tanya

Hey Jinghao! Happy 18th Birthday! Great to hv you in our class =) best wishes in everything! -Jeslyn =)

Hey sister. =) Happy 18th Birthday! Really enjoyed e PW days & OM days. Esp fun with u around - crappy moments! Haha. Enjoy ur day =) -Huimin

hey Jinghao =) Happy 18th b'dae to u. It's been great having u in our OM group & sharing all the stupid moments... study hard and press on. -amanda

Hey there JingHao! You're one of the crappiest people I've known. You never fail to crack me up. Thanks 4 being such a great PW buddy and classmate! Happy Bday. -Yihui

Happy Birthday JingHao!! You're finally legal!! You've been a great classmate and it has been great having you around!! Enjoy your day!! -ESTHER =)

Hey JH! =) Yup. finally legal age. You can do what you wanted before you turned 18, clubbing hahaha. Thanks for being such a great friend. have a great birthday. Cheers, Cheryl

Hi Jinghao, HAPPY 18th birthday to you!! -Jeremy

JH: Its nice to know you as a great friend! Happy Bdae! =) -Richard-

Wah, 18 yrs old now! You can do many things you cannot before, so pls be careful. Enjoy your Birthday! -MrYeo

Happy Birthday! Every once in a while a flower blooms ~ thats when u know u have found a great friend. and also everyonce in a while the flower sheds its petals ~ *just like the hair on your head* but not to worry...thats when it becomes a fruit! Hope you had fun! Hahaz. Wishing u all the best in everything u do. -Jason =)

n i was like pretty stress up by the fact tt since thurs till yesterday evening, i didnt have to pay for a single meal, and all were at restaurants summore! new york new york on thurs evening, pizza hut yesterday afternoon and Swensens yesterday evening. omg lar. super guity now. i super owe everyone birthday gifts. thx bro for the NY NY dinner and ur wallet. thx jon for ur shampoo. thx jason for ur bball, ur pizza hut lunch and ur super poignant msg.thx mr yeo, the OM grp and richard and meixuan for the dinner, the shirt. n msot importantly everyone's company. n omg lar...my 2pid OM grp ah play such a 2pid prank on mi. yea n i m not gonna sae it here cuz its super malu. but nevertheless, great planning and acting la. lolx. gonna be my most memorable bday ever. =)

2007-07-06T00:09:00.000+08:00

YEA! i'm 18! clubbing? haha...m18? haha anything can liao. =)

hmmm...class outing yesterday! hmmm...not veri successful tho quite a good turn-up rate. the sun damn good yesterday la! but sianz...not veri dark leh...not happy enuf. but still ok lar...tmr going swimming to become darker. muz muz. almost all the guys turned up. there's jason, clarence, jon, jeremy, vernon, gary but xuan feng like super last min pang seh us cuz he said he was tired n wanted to catch up wif slp haha. as fer girls onli tanya, weiqi, amanda, mabel and cheryl turned up. well i tink the attendance's not bad. haha but can be improved. muz tink of sthg better so tt everyone can go. haha. oh...n there's dinner at billy bombers at cine...first tym eating there. damn shua ku can? oh oh...nvr m i going to eat chicken at such restaurants again. its damn diff to debone the damn chicken. then tried the drink "sex on the coast" cuz it sounded funky but ended up to be sthg like kiwi juice. =.=" haha. oh then after tt waited fer jon to come fer dinner. mani ppl left...like andrea, gary, clarence, jason. then it became an OM outing but w/o huimin onli. haha...damn farni when jon came. we were outside california fitness opp cine then weiqi saw jon then she called out to him. then jon stopped. then bird shit fell on his shoulders. haha...then tanya asked jon how it felt.then jon said it was cold. haha...

then we went kopitiam. then jon found out his wallet missing and found out his pocket got a hole in it! then he re-tracked his steps but still cnnt find. so he made a report at the mrt control station.then after tt went police station to make a report. wah first tym got such experience.hope jon will get his wallet back.

2dae went out wif WL n jon fer dinner.yupp. thx guys fer the treat at new york new york and the gifts. WL got mi a rip curl wallet. then jon got mi a CLEAR hairfall control shampoo. WTF. haha...

2007-07-05T23:58:00.001+08:00

last few mins of my 17th birthday. =(

2007-07-04T00:58:00.001+08:00

YEA! its FINALLY OVER! liberation at last. oh...n sentosa's tis morning at 10. hehe muz be black black. =)

yea!

2007-06-28T22:35:00.000+08:00

exams juz flew past tis wk like some whirlwind. it was over in juz a flash. n come to tink of it, a yr has past so fast. so much memories in SAJC and in a few months tym i would be out of it.i can still rmb my first day at orientation lar.abt how i used to complain how boring the orientation was and all and didnt realli try to mix ard. but now u put mi back to a yr ago, i'll so utterly enjoy myself and soak in all tt j1 mood.haha...

exam 2dae was ok i guess. GP n chem P2 was fine but chem P1 was some killer. haha. tt sums up 2dae's papers. after tt went wif gary, clarence, vernon, jeremy, jason, jon, xuanfeng to watch transformer lor. the 6.40pm one.

oh man oh man! someone juz kill mi pls. all tt action and hot stuff frm transformers is juz killing mi. ok great...first of all i would like to comment tt the movie's a blast.n it could well be the best movie i have ever watched. i mean SERIOUSLY! hell to spiderman, x-men or wadeva other man frm marvel comics cuz tranformers realli rock. i m gonna watch it again. haha...sorri abit enthu i noe. lolx.

yea! short break b4 tuesday's paper. got chance to take a breather b4 starting again. sianz...tmr might have to go JB wif my family.didnt realli wanna go but see how. tok to my dad first. haha.

2007-06-25T19:09:00.000+08:00

YEA! my 200th post! ok 2dae was a pretty screwed up day. cuz its econs. n most of the qns were macroeconomics. oh man...i hope i pass well. didnt plan my tym well fer the ppr. bleahx...one ppr down. 9 more to go!

2007-06-24T09:32:00.000+08:00

agrh! exams tmr! but one gd thing though...onli nid go skl in the afternoon tmr n tuesday. and friday and next monday no skl. hehe...

9 more days to freedom!

leehom: "change my ways"

2007-06-21T18:06:00.000+08:00

oh...wang lee hom's new song fer his upcoming album. quite nice. called "luo ye gui gen" i tink album to be released on july 13th. yupp! enjoy! =)

(on the other hand i tink i dun upload it cuz later kena sue-ed) hahaz.

medical

2007-06-21T17:10:00.000+08:00

went NS medical on monday and reached there super early like 8.14 thx to jason. yupp...he kindly offered to give mi a lift on his dad's car. n saw jason first tym in specs n its super farni dunno how to say. n i m nt realli used to wearing back specs. first of all we need to register at the counter wif our IC, then we proceeded to the photography rm to have our SAF identity card foto taken.we wore a green uniform, which looks utterly crappy. then we queue up fer our turn. heng heng can take out specs or else damn sia suay. b4 my turn i made sure my hair was in place as i would like it to be in the foto. but guess wad...the photographer's assistant go push up my fringe and it turned out super ugly in the foto. fak him leh.

then we went to register in another area fer our medical checkup.first station nid go test urine. the nurse told us to urine on a strip of paper (wif some coloured labels on it) and let him take a look at the results. then we have to take some blood frm the fingers. tsk tsk...they extracted from my middle finger. then went to a room to take a tube of blood frm my arm.

then went fer dental. the dentist damn pretty leh. but stay in the room fer onli less than a min. damn sianz. then i was told to go fer a x-ray on my jaw. (dunno fer wad oso) tt's station 2. station 3 was x-ray on the chest. then jason complained tt the woman touched his chest. =.="

station 4...hmmmwad's station 4? erm erm...oh yea its the hearing test rm. they tell u go into tis air tight rm and put on the headphones and they will play a beep sound n u r supposed to raise whichever hand according to which side u hear the "beep" on.

then went to tis big big rm. first of all we nid to go and deposit our stuff wif our shirt, shoes, socks and all belongings in the locker. then we had to proceed to the EOC rm, which shld be station 5. they clip ur ankles wif 2 big big clip then stick alot of rubber stuff on ur chest area. station 6 was height and weight. sianz how come so short sia...175cm, 71.5kg...then station 7 was the measure blood pressure de. after tt went to counter to take back my folio and went back to lockers to put on my clothing, shoes and my belongings. proceeded to station 8 after waiting fer my queue number. station 8 the most fun one. erm i mean the most farni.

go inside the doc inside immediately sae "stay at tt corner take off ur pants and underwear" i did accordingly lor. then he sae "ok put them back on" almost immediately. then his colleague nxt door toked to him, n so he turned his back n tok tok tok awhile then turned back n look at the papers on his hands and said "stand at tt corner and take off ur pants and underwear" then he looked up at mi said immediately "oh oh sorri...erm any past injuries?" hahaz... lolx...WTF!

then he checked my folio and saw tt i had some shifting of the patella. it was diagnosed a few years back when i was in sec skl. its called osteomalacia. sianz...n because of tt i got into PES B. but in another way, its a good thing. mebe i would be safe frm commando and guard. hehe...

after tt proceeded to station 9 the computer one. tis part the longest of all the stations cuz nid to do alot of stupid tests. some visualisation test, math test, reaction test (see how fast u can react to changing numbers) tis one most fun...u see the numbers jumping ard then u muz tap on the keyboard the no. u see thrice then follo the order. then another one quite fun one is they flash a string of numbers e.g. 456456164984 sthg liddat for a few seconds then after tt another screen wif alot of numbers anyhow mix one appear then after tt another screen appears where u have to recall n type back tt number sequence. i hated the one on visualisation the most. cuz have to imagine turning an object frm tis position to another n asking u how the object would look like. the physics one was ok-ok. then there's oso some no-brainer free response qns. yupp...n tt took up over an hr. sianz...n its damn taxing on the mind cuz i felt so tired afterwards tt i slept on the bus, at home, and didnt go fer tuition. hahaz.

tis wk's probably the most unproductive wk of the entire hols. cuz i m like stuck wif differentiation n integration fer like 3 days?! sianz...other maths topics r UNTOUCHED. i'm screwed. bio still got homeostasis, dna replication, topics 8 n 9 and prokaryotic genome to go. topics 8 and 9 muz be my top priority cuz nxt wednesday exam. chem left mainly tis year's physical chem topics and econs got demand and supply, market failure and economic policies left. erm...so m i screwed or izit still ok? hahaz...i dunno but i feel screwed. on the other hand...less than 2 more wks to freedom! =)

random stuff.

2007-06-17T00:24:00.000+08:00

woah! after days of experimentation, i found out tt jay chou music goes best wif studying. esp. those emo ones. hahaz...oh oh...tis wk found alot of nice songs...i wanna share wif ur the titles...realli damn nice.

toni braxton: breathe again
elliott yamin: wait for me

erm actually alot one...but quite alot r chinese ones...hahaz...so i doubt ur would like it. hahaz. 9 more days to BT!

dyin.

2007-06-14T14:12:00.000+08:00

broke my record on monday. studied bio till like 3 am last nite and finally managed to finish genetics. sianz...monday it was like ard 1.30 am then buay tahan. yesterday can tahan until 3 all thx to my dad's ginseng. hahaz...he's been like feeding all kinds of shit. lolx...n ginseng chicken soup bought by my uncle on sunday. sleeping late+heaty ginseng+lack of exercise=pimple breakout and sore throat. yea good excuse to pon skl nxt time. yea feeling like crap when i woke up tis morning and my throat's feeling sore. and a groggy head too. sianz...

shoot mi pls.

2007-06-13T13:37:00.000+08:00

went serangoon garden country club wif eugene 2dae fer gym. if kena caught nid pay $10. wah cool sia. liddat gym then got kick. hahaz.

sianz...haven study maths yet when there's a mock exam on friday. n there's so much more for bio. haiz...at least i did like 3/4 of chem n finished half of macroeconomics. sianz liao...bio still at proteins 2 but finished viruses n bacteria. wah... stress stress stress...at tis rate i m going...i m not gonna make it fer BT2. diaoz.

n dunno why. my right toe got infected sumhow...2 days ago was limping ard in bugis and it was swollen. n pus n all tt liquid was flowing out every single minute of the day. luckily it got better hahaz...

chill out.

2007-06-12T09:55:00.000+08:00

finally went out fer the first time in the hols to chill wif WL. went bugis fer dinner at pastamania cuz 2 of his frens r working there n so there'll be 30% staff discount. its its realli damn cheap. i ordered the clayfish spicy pasta and i even paid fer WL's n its onli $15.20. and it came in a set wif medium size coke and garlic bread. but they gave us xtra: chicken soup and when u scoop soup u can get whole chunky pieces of chicken. yupp its realli cool shit fer tt price.

went fusion bar to play pool. damn cool place but super ex lar. hahaz...but the table n cue-balls damn nice. can sparkle one the balls. then after u play rite they will put the used balls in sthg like a rice cooker liddat. some cool shit. n there's a bar there. haha. then i thrashed WL 5-0 fer eight ball. wait wait muz put bigger 5-0 (resized) haiz oso dunno wad happen 1 mth plus nvr play then he one day nvr play onli then liddat. haiz... but later play wif him 9 ball. then i see him so poor thing n bring mi go eat good stuff fer dinner...then fang shui let him win 5-1. haiya...

after tt went back to pastamania n got a pizza. n its onli $7.10. can someone juz slap mi n let mi get back to reality? n his frens gave us free medium sized soda and chunky chicken soup again. yea man... they're damn nice seriously. haiz but not girl la sianz if not confirm make her my gf then got free pastamania. hahaz...j/k j/k

after tt went ps arcade to play bball. the machine one. damn cool. first time play but i tink i kena hooked liao...feel like going back again lar...haha...muz beat WL lar...lose to him like shit damn malu. we started playin at same tym hor but my score onli 58 when he's is like 103 lar. wtf...i swear after bt will go train. but wth lar...playing half-way then arcade close then machine off. WAH! my $1 leh...sianz....10.30 onli leh...sianz...

then after tt walked to paradiz wif WL then got some heart to heart tok mainly abt his poly frens. hahaz...a short talk but i realli shone some light into my life.seriosuly. abt value-ing friendships and how circumstances could show u hu r ur true frens...yupp. how true.

june hols suck.

2007-06-07T20:28:00.001+08:00

its realli bz man. BT2 is coming n i can't afford to continue failing anymore! muz mug mug mug! june hols suck man...every since i stepped into JC...haiz...wad happened to those potato couching days?

anw...i recently shifted my study area to my late grandfather's room...yupp. real nice to study there. my dad bought an aircon fer tt room last thurs and got mi a new realli comfy chair 2dae...damn shiok sia...seriously, tt rm now juz lacks a plama tv, a jacuzzi, a bar, a hi-fi set, a mini fridge and a bed to sleep on.

camp.

2007-05-30T21:06:00.000+08:00

hellooo...juz back frm mentoring camp which is so sianz. actually it would have been SO MUCH better if it hadnt be fer MISS CHIA WAI LING's constraints on the CCA, esp. on the amt of money we can spend and the type of activities we can conduct. fer example ah...the guys were supposed to conduct some night trail activity...damn scary one...confirm damn fun but chia wai ling said its was too scary. n wth...we wanted to screen a movie...cuz movie screening confirm will be damn fun...n we thot of screening a horror movie "corllic" to match our initial decision of the night trail but she said:

"The movie that is to be selected would not contain any bits on horror, violence or anything unsuitable. Instead, a meaningful movie would be shown that would put them into a reflective mood for the end of the day."

seriously...fuck her.

anw...although the camp was sian...but it was fun in some ways itself. crapped super alot wif eugene, ashiq n jeremy...like whole day kip laufing. we were like toking abt how jeremy had a fetish fer cats n how he would prey on cats and how he would prefer the fiercer cats cuz he deems "pain as pleasure" n the 3 of them were toking abt their days in their uniform grps then when their juniors had to do pumping they shouted "wad r ur doing? trying to fuck air ah" wah super farni lar. then last nite after all activities ended we went play basketball and volleyball at 11+ all the way till 1+ b4 going off to bathe n then going to the cafe to play monopoly and eat our "stash" which consisted of ruffles chips and all tt sinful junk. n how much we crapped wif the rest of the mentors when we were auctioning fer sites...like raise $1 each time and try to sabo each other. hahaz. damn fun. soon we were bored of it n went jalan jalan ard track fer 1 rd then going to the tennis court to tok cock. it was oredi ard 4. then we cock till like 4.38 and fell asleep. oh oh...then the 5 j2 mentors came up wif fuckin lame names fer ourselves la...jeremy called mi "jingjing" then jeremy was "ah hui" eugene was "xixi", ashiq was "binbin" and simeon was called "meonmeon" aiya damn gay i noe but super corny n fun. we slept at the tennis court wif some of the other mentors then went down to our bunks at 5.30 to slp again till 7.30. ok...the fun part of the camp ends here. the rest arent worth mentioning. bleahx.

tis sux.

2007-05-28T18:37:00.000+08:00

haiz...wad a weekend. sianz. i planned a study timetable for myself fer the june hols and i promised myself to stick to it starting last saturday. n wad the heck. i spent most of my weekend watching "the return of the condor heroes" and wasted my whole weekend away. n tis morning went gym then had to rush to little india to meet the logistics com and the birthday com for CCA. was supposed to meet at 12.30 but i went to ps to meet jason, jon and xf fer lunch at 12.30 instead. then onli reached little india at abt 1.30. yea wad an ass i noe. hahaz.

amazing race.

2007-05-26T11:37:00.000+08:00

yesterday was supposed to be a great day since skl ends at 12pm. and since lessons ended at 10.30 for my class...it was supposed to be a even better day. but it was so disappointing. had dry run fer my mentoring camp amazing race...frm 12 to approx. 6. omg wad a way to spend my day. =.="

anw... played bball wif choon kiat n his frens at 10.30. then later amanda, mabel n tanya joined in. played till 12 then went fer 2pid mentoring. jeremy ho n i were station masters n we had to station ourselves at milenia walk. we reached there abt 2 since we were confident tt we would be early no matter wad cuz the rest of the mentors were pretty late at reporting. but wth...when we were crossing the road to milenia walk, the pres amanda, vice pres eugene and yee wei were like running towards us lar. dots. their first station but we, the station masters havent even stationmed ourselves! thus, we ran. hahaz...ran into the car exhibition n we managed to lost them. went to harvey norman n jalan jalan b4 amanda n yee wei found us. dots.

anw. jeremy n i went coffee bean n stationed ourselves there. the teams realli took damn long to find us. n its super malu when we had to make them all kinds to 2pid stuff like push ups sit ups and jumping jacks in public and one grp even had to do a foreit by shouting "i love mentoring" cuz they couldnt find the clue. haha. (note: i had written the clue on the coffee bean tissue paper, folded it n hid it in the flower pot. teams hu saw it didnt suspect it. they thot it was rubbish left by other customers and i told them it might have mucus on it. hahaz.)

so yea ok...amazing race was ok but jeremy received lots of complains frm other mentors fer ta-kaning them. n guess wad? we were being moved to the roof-top of esplanade instead fer our station. =.="

oh. watched pirates on thurs. i was super anticipating the movie lar. but wad a disappointment. dosed off half-way. =.=" but probably i was too tired la. i probably will watch it again cuz i dun believe one my my fav. movies can be tt boring. oh did i mention tis b4? i nvr fell asleep fer any movie xcept the inconvinient truth. n how can pirates be in the same category as the freaking boring and drive-me-nuts movie?

CIP

2007-05-24T23:07:00.000+08:00

THE CLASS INITIATED CIP IS OVER! yea! it was fun seriously. the teams tt participated were realli impressive esp. some of the teams tt i watched play 2dae.

u noe...tis CIP thing, its realli great cuz it realli made mi learn alot. mainly contacting companies for sponsorships n stuff. yea. i tink it oso made mi understand the process of organisign events and working as a team. although we didnt realli raised much, but i tink for our first self-initiated CIP, it was realli well done. it was unique too since not mani classes tt did their own CIP was sports-related. n i could see tt the teams tt participated realli had lots of fun. like alvin...his team lost but he told mi tt he wants to play again. yup realli glad to hear tt. the organisers were jun jie n weiqi, but i tink weiqi like did most of the work lar. n she's like the one coordinating everything fer the past 3 days and even wanted to treat us drinks to thank us fer helping out.n she kept on thanking us fer helping out...haiz...why so ke qi? the whole class is part of tis leh. haha...there r oso like jon hu's oso veri devoted fer his duties as a sai-kang warrior haha. mr yeo, jason, xf, jeremy, vernon, huimin, meixuan, richard, mabel, amanda, cheryl were all realli supportive. haiz...damn sad lar...skl will be ending in 2 terms time...no...shorter than tt...n there goes my whole skl life. miss chia was rite...after JC, there wun be anyone caring fer us like our tutors now do. n can our future classes be as bonded as now or before in sec skl? i realli doubt it.

anw... after dinner 2dae, richard, jason n i went play bball at the CC beside the street soccer pitch. played against an auntie team. n we lost 11-5. =.=" tt auntie in the team, i realli respect her. damn zai can. she sae the ball will go in it will one leh. wth. 3 pointer shots, jump shots, lay-ups, all no prob. omg. she zai lar. but since i didnt have my shoes wif mi, i played bare-footed and now my feet are all blistered. f***ing pain sia. potong pasir community centre...look out fer a auntie wif a left elbow guard n wear red singlet one. go challenge her! she damn zai...win her i give ur treat. haha...

one more month.

2007-05-18T19:21:00.000+08:00

life's been bz but wow...no more SPA fer the rest of my life and i have been thru like 3 tests tis week? n bio SPA...woah...6 pages of hardcore memory work.

nxt wk's a free wk. no tests at all. (hopefully) but there'll be 2 dry runs fer the mentoring bonding camp and tt sux. esp. nxt friday. early dismissal at 12 but have gotta run ard s'pore to do the dry run fer amzaing race. zzzzzzzz.

i realli hate mentoring. i realli do. its juz the wrong CCA. but well...one more month n i'm a free man! realli envy the freedom frm CCA tt jason now enjoys. ahhhh! one more month. anw...got my exams timetable 2dae. n its gd man. ends on 3rd july. 3 days b4 my bdae and hell am i so lucky.

yup! street soccer competition is quite a success. ard 16 teams signed up. sponsors got back to me and got all the prizes ready. now juz haveta go down and collect the pizza hut vouchers. n mr chay SPONSORED the trophies. n he ordered one extra accidentally and decided to give tt to his fav. student. here it is!

haha. one more trophy to my collection! yea!

juz another post.

2007-05-10T20:21:00.000+08:00

yea apparently i watched spiderman AGAIN on tuesday wif my classmates at cine. haha...ponned math lecture cuz there was such a big gap between our 2nd last lesson and the lecture. yea. cuz mr yeo had SYF. managed to get realli good seats but somehow didnt realli enjoy it as much as the first time i watched it. haiz.

super embarrasing 2dae. had a bio lecture test and some qns frm the TYS apparently appeared in the test. so after the test, i took out my TYS and flipped thru to see whether i got the answers correct. n WTH! mr marcus chan saw mi holding it n told mi to hold it up to show everyone. n said "this is an example of a hardworking student" DIAOZ! =.=" super embarrasing can? faints.

sianz. my relationship wif my dad is strained yet again. ALL BECAUSE OF A STUPID BOTTLE OF BRAND ESSENCE! tuesday morning i told my dad tt i will be home early n i would drink the bottle of brand essence he prepare fer mi every morning when i get home. but, miss lee asked mi to stay fer bio consultation on tuesday afternoon which i did. had consultation till 5.30 frm 4 and after tt decided to go fer chemistry remedial again cuz mr lim's was so boring on monday.

i reached home at 7.05. opened my gate and as usual greeted my dad. "pa" no response. i tried again. "pa". yet again, no response. so i got pissed and said: "i m home late cuz i stayed back in skl fer consultation and remedial lecture."

my dad went on ranting tt i should called him to tell him i was staying back. then he started saying he's angry cuz i didnt drink the brand essence tt he spent so much effort preparing. OH PLEASE!!!! it would have been cold even when i get home at 2 anw. AND FER GOING FER CONSULTATION AND REMEDIAL LECTURE AND NOT DRINKING HIS BRAND ESSENCE, MY DAD N I R HAVING A COLD WAR SINCE TUESDAY.

no way m i apologising to him cuz i dun tink i did anything wrong. n i find him seriously childish. omg. i can't wait to stay in a hostel.

198.

2007-05-06T14:20:00.000+08:00

PMT was juz over 2 days ago. n i can't help tinking abt how true the words of my teachers were. its realli time to wake up and stop playing a fool wif my life when there's onli 176 days to the A levels. but on the brighter note its onli 198 more days to freedom! miss lee's fav. words were "misconceptions here and there". hahaz damn farni. i was trying to refrain myself from laufing. but seriously lar...i tink the teachers offered mi some good advices and i tink i should stick to them.

mr yeo ah...wah...when my parents sat down hor...he started saying.."yea his results r worrying" oh...n mr yeo's catchphrase is "worrying" lolx. mr yeo advised mi to read thru the notes briefly, then look at questions and do them. n ONLY refer to the notes when there is a nid to. miss lee told mi to draw the mindmaps fer all the topics and show them to her. so tt she can check my misconceptions. cuz she said i might noe the big picture, but the smaller details tt link them all up might be "fuzzy" to mi. so very true. n my dad was super gam jiong after PMT...he immediately brought mi to popular to buy bio TYS...toa payoh ran out of stock so brought mi to hougang mall popular. so ended up reaching home at 9+.

then yesterday.he bought mi MORE bio reference books.n heng it was relevant or else his money would have gone down the drain.

chem spa tmr.econs test tmr.n bio lect. test on thurs. heng jon n i took the math test last friday liao or else there will be another test on friday.phew.

pissed.

2007-05-02T19:25:00.000+08:00

spiderman 3 was juz as wad i expected: it rox. went down to lido wif WL, sabree, tak lung, tong liang, yann kiat, and yisiong. caught the 11.45 show. although we got the first row, woah...i m so mighty glad tt i can catch the movie during its premeire and the fact tt i could even lay my hands on the tix at the eleventh hour. ate at subway and talked crap while pigging at the tuesday submeal. orchard was hell packed wif a lot of ppl yesterday. woah!

went down to cine after the movie fer pool b4 proceeding to bk at midpoint orchard to look at the rest eat while we do wad we usually do: make fun of tak lung. aiya...he damn poor thing leh i find. although he's 19 2dae rite...but he still acts like a p6 boy then do all sorts of childish things.then we will make all sorts of jokes abt him.but he NEVERS flares up and he will juz continue laufing as always. i dunno lar. he's been liddat since day 1 i met him.

ok.stop it. i shall not go on and on abt him and make tis some sort of forum where ppl can come in and make fun of him on my blog. hell no. aiya. let's change the subj.

met hazel (WL's cuz) at PS then 3 of us went sakae to makan. then tok alot of crap lor. then WL veri kua kang...he foot the bill. hey bro. next time will treat u back one.dun worri.

2dae received the most wonderful news of my life:there's a possibility tt the skl's sponsoring our OM trip to US Michigan. i tink 80% if i m not wrong. n we onli have to pay $500 via EDUSAVE! the trip's frm 23rd to 28th may. damn cool can! i seriously so wanna go lar. i was so excited and elated n wanted so veri much to share this piece of good news wif my dad and mom. but why muz he be such a wet blanket? juz abt an hr ago, broke the news to him and i hoped tt he would share the same enthusiasm as mi, but hell no. he simply slammed "NO" into my face. he went on ranting abt my grades, abt how OM has taken up too much of my time. i agree wif him. bgut such rare opportunities dun drop by often. even mr yeo, the one hu initially told mi tt he didnt realli agree on us participating in tis competition, gave us the thumbs up sign and told us to proceed on. dad ah dad...can u juz be more supportive of ur son, fer once?

u noe...fer my entire life, i have been brought up in the shadow of my dad.my character is such a mould of his: introverted and simply those tt juz wanna stay at home n have no social life kind. but i hate tt me. i wanna be someone diff frm him cuz i can see tt he has the exact same character as my grandmother. i HATE their character and how they treat others and i juz so wanna not be another one of them. i wanna have a social life.i wan to be outgoing.i wanna travel ard the world.i juz wanna be more like my mum.u can sae tt my dad has influenced mi TOO MUCH.n somehow...i feel tt he has made me a pessimist.haiz.

since i m on the subj. lemme tok more abt tis man.he always fails to give me the sense of security. when i was young,he disciplined me severely fer every little thing i do wrong.n i can rmb those days when i dread his return frm work.life sux. now, he still has a string attached to my life. i dun have control over my own life. i have to do things behind his back n i dun like tt feeling. whenever i go out, i have to worri abt when he's gonna call mi, when is he gonna flare up, abt him nagging at mi abt my work. i have lots of worries. can't even enjoy myself in the company of my frenz.

wadeva man.sometimes i get so sick of him.but still, i can't deny he's my dad.my mum sent mi fer counselling twice to talk to someone professional.no. i dun have any mental illness lar.i juz needed someone to tok to.but i dun tink counselling helps my problems.but well...i'm 18. a few more years and i'll be on my own. i can do wad i wan and wad i tink is rite. when i'm in the uni, i'll stay at the hostel n wun be in prison liao.free frm the man tt i call my father.

i m not a rebellious kid.i luv my parents n my siblings, but i juz dun agree wif how my dad governs the family. next time i m a husband and a father, i vow not to follow his footsteps and i would be a much better dad so tt my kid wun have to blog abt him behind his back. hahaz.

si-bai-de man

2007-04-30T22:47:00.000+08:00

screw u sam raimi! screw u fer making spiderman such a hit and everyone has to watch it tmr. n screw all the cinemas in s'pore fer releasing spiderman on 1st may which happens to be labour day. now everyone has to rush fer the tix.
hahas.siao leh.i usually thot ppl will be like mi: w8 till actual day then go buy the tix. nvr expected s'poreans to be so kiasu and book all their tix so early.typical singaporeans.haiz...shld have listened to wad they sae on television: singaporeans r kiasu.
got bloody alot of h/w. muz try finish some. then tmr wake up 4 do more. then tmr can go out liao. hehe.

scary day.

2007-04-27T22:08:00.000+08:00

it has been a scary day. dun ask mi why. i dun realli wanna tok abt it. hahaz. n its a boring day too, esp. mentoring. juz go there and there's not even a meeting. the j2s were all there stoning and waiting fer instructions from amanda. and after like 40 mins or so, amanda told the j2s tt we can go. oh man. hahaz. mentoring so slack! should have signed up for a more enthu CCA, but then again i guess i would be complaining abt how busy i m. hahaz.

2dae's ME is abt coming up wif our own marriage vow. didnt have any overwhelming response. even the usually chatty jason was quiet and was fiddling wif his "ivory" keychain n looking lost. jon and i was laufing at those hu were contributing. n most of the girls didnt share. hahaz...but andrea sort of helped gary bring up his point. gary's marriage vow: muz be faithful to partner.go geylang fer only and only durians. =.="

oh did i mention? bio's so interesting. aerobic repiration,photosynthesis, dark reactions,nervous system especially.